disconnected ➸ [l.h]

one

"Jesse!!" I like my name. I really do, but I don't like how it's spelled. Mum thought it was different than doing Jessie, and well, my dad was hoping for a boy. Figures since he calls me pal. "Sup?" Two years ago, I lost a best friend, but I gained more. It took long to move on, as well as Luke, from the weekly updates with mum. It took a while until she noticed I didn't care. Within those two years, I became good friends with Alex, who basically dyes her hair different every month. Of course I have other friends, but I was closer to her. Luke started a band that practices every Saturday in his garage.

They aren't too bad, but who am I to judge?

"Where were you? You left me alone until fourth." It was Wednesday, which means I miss the first three periods to go back to mum's. "Wednesday." I understand Alex forgetting, with two younger brothers, she has a lot going on. Although she may not look like it, she's very smart. She mostly has free class periods because she already finished her classes in secondary school. She has the choice of taking university classes, but she chooses not to.

"Right, back to your mum's, right?" she asked. I nod, reaching for my lock on my locker, "So, let me make sure I get this right. Last Wednesday, you left your mum's and went to your dad's, which was Wednesday, Friday, Saturday, Sunday, Monday and Tuesday. Then Wednesday, you miss first three classes because he drops you off at your mum's then you have breakfast, then she brings you to school?" I nod. She was pretty good at remembering that. "Then you will stay with your mum until next week that Wednesday?" I shrug, "Basically."

"I don't get it. Why don't you just wait till after school?" she asked, leaning against the locker next to mine on the right. "Cause then I'll have to sit through Eden's class five days a week. I can barely handle four." Eden is the toughest teacher at school and probably the meanest.

Alex pulled her face up in disgust, "Did he have a girlfriend before?" I knew she was talking about Luke, she always was. No matter how much it made me uncomfortable. I look back seeing to him hugging the most popular girl in the school, . I never liked Kenzie, she always jumped from guy to guy after he did something for her, school or sex. Luke is the only guy that stayed the longest with her, ever.

"What are you looking at freak?" There's Kenzie and her catch phrase. I cover Alex's mouth before she said anything horrible. I grab her elbow turning her around. I shake my head and drop my hands to my side, "I don't know why you were ever friends with her, Lukey. She's just the same old freak!" I hear Kenzie talking loudly. I bite my lip, grabbing my bag out of my locker before slamming it close.

I'm tired of hearing that come out of her mouth every day. Luke never said anything after her when she did say this, "Jesse." Alex said lowly, I push past her to the bathroom across the hall. Sadly, I had to past the couple. "Awe, is someone going to go cry?" Kenzie pouted. "Fuck off." I snap, pushing the door open. The door closes behind me before it opens again. I drop my bag on the ground, taking deep breaths.

"I don't get it. Why do you let her push you around?" Because, Alex, if I push her around Luke will hate me even more than he already does. I hold the back of my neck with both hands and shake my head, not responding to the question.

The door opens again, "Oh, did I interrupt something?" Kenzie pushed the door open. I bite my lip from saying anything, "Do you even talk? I mean, Luke's told me your pretty nosy." she frowned, walking past me shoving my shoulder. Alex nodded, pushing me to say something. Once again, I don't let Kenzie get to me, no matter how annoying she is.

I bend down to pick up my bag, "How old were you two? Fourteen? Sixteen?" she asked, applying bright red lipstick. "Thirteen." I clench my jaw, "Have you even had your first kiss yet? I'll tell you, Luke is an amazing kisser. You missed out. You know, best friends always end up dating." she rubbed her lips together. "The lip piercing makes it even better." she smiled, closing her eyes, her shoulders lifted slightly before lowering them and opening her eyes.

"I feel like she's reading me porn." Alex said from her spot on the wall. Kenzie smirked, "Still a virgin," she sighed, "That boy doesn't know what he's missing."

I know Luke is still a virgin. He swore he wouldn't do it until he's married, unless he lied to me about that too.

"Oh, did you hear their band is playing at the park today? You should go, see how good he is without you." Kenzie dropped her make up in her purse before walking over to the door. I stand up quickly running over to her. Alex pushed herself off the wall grabbing my arms. "Oops. Did I hit a nerve? My bad." she pouted, opening the door. "Fuck you!!" I screamed.

Once the door closes, I pull myself away from Alex and grab my bag, pushing the door open. Kenzie and Luke were this time at his locker across the hall, which was still next to mine. I roll my eyes at them before walking down the hall to the exit. "Jesse!!" Alex yelled. I ignore her pushing the door open to the side of the building.

I'm so glad school's over because I can't take this anymore.

"Jesse, stop!" Alex grabbed my wrist turning me around. "What is up? Like something clicked and you flipped." she was out of breath from chasing me. I look back at the door, "'Cause I do believe what she said, okay? I do feel like Luke is better off without me. All I knew is he had done covers in his room; I didn't even know how good he sang. Look where he is now compared to two years ago. No one knew him. He never liked Kenzie. You didn't know me or him. Everything changed in two years. He changed his life around because I was out of his life." By the time I finish, Luke and Kenzie were walking out with their little group of her friends and probably his bandmates.

"You don't know that." Alex said quietly. I shake my head laughing, "Look at him. I have never seen him smile that much. Never. He's better, okay?" I wasn't lying. Luke smiled more now than he ever did. He's probably happier as well. "Fine, okay, can we at least go to the concert tonight?" Alex asked. I look over her shoulder at Luke, who was now frowning while everyone was smiling and laughing, "I don't know." I mumbled. "Great, I'll pick you up at seven." Alex smiled and walked backwards. She lives opposite the way I do. Even though I'm over the mile limit for walking, I still walk.

I cross my arms, why am I doing this?

You are my getaway
You are my favorite place
We put the world away
Yeah we are so 

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