disconnected ➸ [l.h]

four

"Movies, yes or no?" I look back seeing Alex walking up with Jason, Tanner and Kate. "Depends, are you going to bring a random date?" Alex tends to bring a random guy from school every time all of us go somewhere, whether it's to the movies or even to just get a coffee down the street. She claims it's because she feels like since Tanner and Kate are dating and always kissing and Jason and I just talk to each other a lot she feels left out.

"No, I am not because I actually got Jason a date." I turn around from my locker; everyone looked over at her in shock. Jason said it before, dating wasn't really his thing. He has gone on a couple dates but none of them end really well. "You what?" he asked. Alex rolled her eyes, "A date. Do I need to spell it out for you?" I reach into my locker still looking at Alex; I grab a folder and quickly smack her in the face.

I turn around putting the folder away. "Ow. What was that for?" Alex said. "Thinking and doing of getting Jason a date." I laugh. I put the folder back inside my locker on the top shelf. I pull my bag out from the small hook way in the back, "He needs to get out." I roll my eyes slinging the strap over my shoulder.

"I'm fine getting my own date thanks." Jason said leaning against the locker to my left. I reach into my locker grabbing my . "But you need a date; you can't stay single forever like Jesse." Alex said. "Like Jesse?" I say turning around. I enjoyed being single. I didn't have to deal with the stress of always having to look good everyday or worrying about the relationship.

She shrugged, "I'm just saying you been single for how long?" she crossed her arms, I close my locker opening my mouth to say something but someone else did. "Excuse me, need to get to my locker." I look over towards Jason who looked back behind him before moving over towards me. I look up see who said it, Luke and Kenzie. Joy. "You were saying." Alex said. I sigh annoyed with her, "Who cares the last time I had a relationship?" I ask holding my board in front of me.

"I do." Alex pushed. "Well I don't, Alex I love you and all but seriously stay out of my love life." Alex raised her hands up in defeat, "Are we still on for the movies?" Tanner asked. I shrug, "I don't know." I say leaning against the lockers. "This is why you only have us; you're a party pooper, asshole." Alex snapped walking away.

I widen my eyes looking down the hall as Alex walked outside, "Someone's on her period." Tanner mumbled. I slap his arm, "Be glad Alex walked off, and I'm the one that hit you." I laugh before pushing past him walking towards the door. I push the door open with my shoulder walking past all the people waiting for their parents to pick them up or talking to friends.

I set the board down before stepping on pushing off. I maneuver around people before I turn onto my street. I tuck a couple of strands of hair behind my ear. My phone began to ring from my back pocket; I pull it out answering it without looking at the name as always. "Hello?" I stop in front of the park so I can pay for attention to the call. "Jesse, I-I need to talk to you." I roll my eyes. "Just talk your girlfriend, Luke." I wasn't really in the mood to be bothered by him.

I'm pretty sure Alex is mad at me the way she stormed off. "Please. Just meet me at our old place, its important." I shake my head as my house comes into view. "Why should I?" I hear him sigh from the other line, "Wait? How the hell did you get my number?!" I remember very clearly changing my number and telling my mum and dad to never ever tell Luke the new number.

I turn into my driveway, "I stole my mum's phone." I stop getting off my board. I pick it up with my left hand and walk around the side of the house. "Luke I'm not going, okay. Honestly that place holds a lot of memories that I rather not visit." I sigh. "Jesse, I just want to explain what happened that night." he said quietly. "Two years later? Really? You couldn't have explained a day, week or a month after it happened?"

I rest my board up against the wall digging in my bag for the key. Mum works till seven and she never got me a key for the front door so I have to use the side door. "It was, complicated, then." I roll my eyes pulling out the key.

"I would've understood if you told me it was complicated, instead you told me nothing. Talked about me behind my back when I, thought, you cared Luke. I honestly thought maybe the eleven years of being best friends might have said something but I guess it didn't. I don't know what was going on, or why you said that but being honest you don't know how it felt." I pause.

"You can say you've been hurt before by a friend or in a relationship, but it's not the same. Having someone that you've known for most of your life tell someone else with hesitation that if their parents weren't close enough, you would've left. When that happens, call me up and only then you can explain that night."

I hang up the phone dropping it in my bag. I unlock the door with the key and push open the door; I grab the skateboard walking inside shutting the door with my foot. I lock the door resting the board against the wall to the right of the door. I walk down the hall into the living room and tossed my bag onto the couch going into the kitchen. I open the cabinet above the sink pulling out a glass cup. I turn on the faucet and put the cup under the water. I turn off the water when the cup fills up; I turn around leaning against the counter as I took a long sip of the water before sighing.

I set the cup on the island in front of me. I push myself off the island walking out of the kitchen into the living room. My phone buzzed from my bag, I walk over to the couch leaning over from the backside pulling gym bag over. I open my bag up digging around trying to find my phone. I finally find my phone and pull it out. I let out a deep breath as I push my hair out of my face; I press the home button before unlocking my phone.

Two simple words and I never heard him say it, or anything.

I'm sorry.
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