Joe
I don't even know what to say to be honest. I am actually kind of on Tracey's side. Sophie just looks at me and says "Joe, are you not even gonna say anything" "Well...to be perfectly honest if you look at everything she said and what's happened she's not actually wrong. I know that's not what you want me to say but it's true" My phone then buzzes and it's a text from Tracey "I am going to New Jersey!!. Make sure neither of them follow me! Please lock the house up when you leave. I'm sorry you've been caught up in all this Joe x"
"That was Tracey, she says she is not coming back she is going to New Jersey and that she doesn't want either of you to follow her"
Nick
What the fuck, she's just running away again after she promised she wouldn't do that, "I have to go to New Jersey" "No, you don't Nick! This is what has got you in this situation, she asked you for space and you followed her, just let the poor woman have some fucking space to breathe!!!" Joe shouts at me. I rarely see Joe lose his shit but this is one of those rare occasions "So she's just gonna leave" Sophie says "Yes, she's right, we came here to be here for her and we haven't Soph, she's always been there for us and the one time she needed us, we weren't there, is it any wonder she's upset" I can see the flash of realisation across Sophie's face as what Joe just said to her sinks in, we've all really screwed this up big time, it was a good thing her coming to LA for a year, it was a positive step and now I don't even know if that will happen.
Tracey
I am just so fucking angry right now. I end up driving around for a bit and then I decide to go to Dani and Kevin's, the only people that have actually been there for me, I have no luggage with me but I don't care. I will buy clothes when I get out there. Luckily I always have my passport in my bag as I never know when I'm gonna need it. It's the middle of the night in New Jersey now so I just send a text to Dani "I am getting on a flight and coming to yours, I will explain more when I get there. Love you x" my phone pings back almost immediately "Ok, have a safe flight and we will see you in a few hours. Love you" I call my assistant to arrange the company plane and I make my way to Heathrow. I park my car and then text my friend James and ask him to pick my car up. I head through security and out to the airstrip to board the plane. I have blocked Sophie and Nick from calling because I seriously can't deal with their bullshit and hypocrisy right now. Poor Joe has been caught in the middle of all this. I really hope they don't come to New Jersey. I have a text from Joe just asking me to let him know I arrive safely to which I reply that I will do. I know I will have to face them eventually but I can't even think about that right now. I get comfy on the plane, put my earphones in and music on and just try and forget the last few hours.
Dani
I get a text from Tracey saying she is coming to ours, I don't know what's happened but it's enough for her to just get on a plane. I tell Kevin when he wakes up that she's on her way and he just looks at me and says " I told Nick not to fuck this up" when the girls get up I tell them Tracey is coming to visit and they are so excited as they love her, she is so great with them. Tracey texts me a few hours later and I've sent Kevin to go and pick her up. I hear the car pull up and I go out to meet them, she looks so tired she just hugs me and I can tell she is barely holding it together. "Where's your luggage" I ask her "I don't have any, I literally just left and got on the plane and figured I will just buy whatever I need while I'm here" oh wow it really must not be good if she's not brought anything with her. "I guess we are going shopping then or do you want to sleep for a bit" "nah I'm good, I managed to sleep a little on the plane"
Tracey
I arrive at Kevin and Dani's, god it's good to be here, I feel less stressed already. I shoot Joe a quick text to let him know I've arrived. Dani and I are off shopping since I didn't bring anything with me "Sooooo wanna tell me what happened" " It was so ridiculous which is why I am so angry, I told the others about the conversation we had about me moving and what I talked about with my boss and I thought they would be happy because it was a step forward but oh was I wrong, both Sophie and Nick were upset and angry that I had discussed it with you and Kev and not them, at that point I just lost it with both of them. Poor Joe didn't know what to say, I felt a bit sorry for him to be honest. I don't understand why it matters who I talked to about it I just needed to talk to someone. I'm not even sure I want to do it now to be honest" "I'm sorry they reacted like that, you can't not do it because of them though if it's something you want to do" "that's part of the problem, I don't know if it is, my head is so full of everything else that I don't think I could make a rational and logical decision anyway, I am so completely in love with Nick which scares me but he frustrates the hell out of me at the same time with his way of doing things which is why I keep running away which I know is not fair on him but I just don't know how else to handle it when it's so intense. Also there is a lot about the US that I like but there is also a lot that I don't!. Urgh I can't think about it at the moment. I just need to relax for a few days and not think about anything and enjoy some time with you, Kev and the girls.
