Dani
"Do you even want kids? You've never really mentioned it" " I don't know, I mean I love kids but I don't honestly know if I ever envisioned having one myself. I need to call Nick!! I am freaking out a little now, in fact I need to see him. I'm going to the show" "Tracey, you're not well. You need to rest. We don't know for certain what's wrong so you need to take it easy until we do. She's already out the door before I can stop her. I run after her and catch her up as she's getting in the car, she asks the driver to go to Tesco so she can get some tests and then we head to the venue.
Tracey
Am I pregnant?. Fuck. Do I want to be pregnant at my age?. What if Nick doesn't want anymore kids, I mean we have literally never talked about it. So many scenarios running through my head it's making me dizzy. When we get there we flash our ids and make our way backstage to find the boys. We run into Greg. "Hey, they are just doing sound check. Shouldn't be much longer. Just head down to the lounge and wait for them" "Oh ok, I think I might need to lie down. I feel really really dizzy" I feel my legs buckle and everything turns to black.
Nick
Greg comes running in and tells me Tracey is here and she's just passed out backstage. I drop the mic and I run backstage to find her. She's in my dressing room and Dani is just trying to wake her up "Do I need to call an ambulance?" Greg asks panicking, normally that's me but I know I need to stay calm for her "let's just give her a minute and see if I can wake her up" Dani leaves us alone and she starts to stir "Nick" I hear her calling me "Hello beautiful, how you doing" she wraps her arms around my neck and just hugs me "Hey babe, what on earth is wrong?" "We need to talk" "Ok sounds super serious" "It could be and I don't know anything for definite but it could be a possibility and explain why I've been so ill" "ok...you are kinda scaring me now babe" I think there is the possibility I might be pregnant and I know we have never even talked about us having kids and I don't know if you want any more. I don't know if I want any and my head is just spinning this is all too much. I just sit there stunned. I mean I just assumed she was on the pill and that's why we never used condoms. "Why did you never say you were not on the pill?" "Why did you never ask?" Ok she's kind of got me there it does take two. I don't know what to say or feel. I love being a dad but I hadn't really considered having anymore, but if I were I would definitely want it be with her. "Babe, have you actually taken a test" "No, not yet. It didn't feel right doing it and you not being with me or even knowing what was going on. It felt wrong" "Ok, well let's not get ahead of ourselves, let's take the test and go from there" She grabs the tests out of her bag and heads into the bathroom to take it. She comes back out and sits on my lap and just bursts into tears. "Hey it's ok babe. Whatever the result, it's all good. I promise. That test is not gonna change the way I feel about you in anyway whether it's positive or negative" I can't stand to see her cry. It hurts my heart so much. The timer on her phone dings to signify it's been 3 minutes but she doesn't move, instead she pulls my head down and my lips meet hers and she kisses me, the kiss gets very steamy very quickly and before I can even say anything she is undoing my pants and pulling them down. I am already hard and ready for her, she has that effect on my body. I love it! She pulls up her dress and moves her knickers to one side and then slides herself down on to me, she starts moving back and forth and then kisses me again. My tongue fighting with hers as I grab her ass to pull her closer and buck my hips up to meet her so I am deep inside her. In this moment I realise I want everything with this woman, marriage, kids, the whole shebang, I never want to do anything again without her. It really doesn't matter the outcome of this test. She is it for me!!! I can't stop the words from falling from my mouth and I was gonna do this big proposal but I just need to ask her "Marry me?" I say in between thrusts "Yes" she moans back as we both find our release.
Tracey
"Yes" I moan as we both find our release. I don't know where that came from. I just needed him. It's been a few days as I've not felt well and I still don't but it was like I heard that timer ping and it ignited a fire inside me and I had to have him. "Babe?" Nick breaks me out of my thoughts. I smile at him "Yes husband" I say back cheekily "So that was a yes yes???" "Yes Nick!! Of course I will marry you" He picks me up and spins me round and kisses me "oh my god. I love you, I love you, I love you" "Ok, ok, stop spinning me round or I will be sick again" I warn. "Shit, sorry baby. We should check this test" I head into the bathroom and pick up the box and come back out and hand it to Nick. "I can't look" All of a sudden I need to get out of there as the reality of the situation hits me. I don't even know if I want kids. As Nick opens the box I grab my bag and run out the door before he can tell me what it says. I can hear him shouting at me to come back but I don't stop, I just keep running. I get out of the venue and into a taxi that's waiting there and just tell them to take me to the airport. My phone is ringing off the hook with Nick, Joe, Dani and Kevin all trying to call me. I can't deal with this. I just can't. If I don't know the results then it's not real. I just need to be anywhere but here. I get on the first flight to London. I've literally left all my stuff in the suite. I get a taxi and go to Sophie's. I don't know where else to go. I knock on the door and she opens it and I just collapse in her arms.
