2 weeks later
Tracey
These last two weeks have been amazing and awful both at the same time. I have gotten to spend loads of time with the girls and Dani and her family. Kevin has been back and forth to New York and LA for meetings so I know that Nick and Joe are back, Sophie is still in the UK with her family which is a little strange, things seemed a little tense with her and Joe, I didn't really ask anything as it's none of my business but Joe ended calling me the other day and telling me everything that's been going on. Even knowing all that about Joe and Sophie I haven't unblocked either her or Nick, I am not sure why really but I just don't feel like I'm ready to talk to either of them yet. I know Sophie is my friend but I just don't know anymore after talking to Joe. Kevin hasn't really said much about Nick, apparently he has asked about me a couple of times but Kev just told him I'm fine. I decided to take the offer from my boss to live in LA for a year so I need to start thinking about looking for somewhere to live soon because I need to start in the LA office in about a week. It's Kevin's birthday this weekend and Dani and I have been busy organising his party which has been a lot of fun but I also know that means I am finally going to have to see Nick because the whole family is coming in for the party. We head out to get the rest of the stuff we need for the food and decorations. All the family are flying in this evening so I am a little nervous. "How are you feeling about seeing Nick" Dani asks me pulling me out of my thoughts "Erm nervous, and apprehensive cos we've not spoken in two weeks and I didn't exactly leave in the best way. I still have him blocked but it will be nice to see him"
Nick
These past two weeks have been absolute hell. I flew back to LA pretty much straight after she left. It took every fibre of my being not to go to Kevin's. I've tried to text and call a few times but they don't go through so I am guessing she's got my number blocked. I don't blame her really. I've asked Kev about her a few times and he says she all good and just chilling out with them. It's so stupid that I am jealous of my own family because they are getting to spend time with her and talk to her and I'm not. I will see her today though when I fly in for Kev's party. Sophie still isn't back from the UK, something is not right with her and Joe but he hasn't talked about it yet. I know he's spoke to Tracey a few times which irritates me as well. I am literally the only one she won't talk to! I throw my stuff in my bag and head out to pick Joe and Mikey up so we can head to Kevin's. The flight is pretty quick and we are soon landing. I am getting more nervous the closer it comes to seeing her. I see Joe texting and when I glance over his shoulder I can see it's Tracey and there is a whole massive chain of texts, I thought he'd only spoken to her a couple of times. I find myself getting more and more angry but I know I have no right, she is not my girlfriend or anything but he's my brother and he knows how I feel about her.
Joe
Things with Sophie and I have been rocky for a while and we thought maybe going to England might help but we just argued the entire time. I ended up calling Tracey a few days ago and just telling her everything. I know she is meant to be Sophie's friend but she has been fucking amazing. She doesn't judge anything, she just listens which is what I have needed. I know she still hasn't spoken to Sophie about what happened before she left. I don't want to lose Tracey as a friend just because she is Sophie's friend if we can't work things out. The car pulls up to Kevin's and he's at the door to greet us, my mom, dad, Frankie and Anna are already here and then I get the shock of my life when I walk in the kitchen, Sophie is sat there with my mom. Tracey is helping Dani so she is in and out of the kitchen she looks up and sees me and gives me a kind of what the hell is going on look and I just shrug my shoulders back to her because I have no clue. Clearly her and Tracey have still not spoken. She walks over and hugs me and then goes back to what she is doing. I see Nick's face just drop when she doesn't hug him, she literally just looks at him and says "Nick" and that's it. So cold and formal.
Tracey
Dani and I get back from food shopping and head into the house and when we do we see Sophie sat there with Denise, I literally don't know what to say as I wasn't expecting to see her. She just kinda looks at me as if she is still angry with me. I don't speak to her I just carry on with prepping the food and then I hear the boys come back. Joe comes in and sees Sophie and clearly he didn't know she was coming back either by the look he just gave me. I give Joe a hug and I think Nick thought I was going to hug him. Part of me wanted to but the other part was telling me I am still angry at him. So I simply just look at him and say "Nick" and then I carry on with the food. I can see the hurt plastered all over his face but I can't deal with that now. I turn to Dani and say "I think we are all done, I'm going to head upstairs and get changed" "Ok babe, see you shortly" A few minutes later there is a knock at my door and I am just praying it's not Nick, I gingerly open it and it's Joe, he comes in and I can feel him starting to lose it, he's angry and upset and frustrated because he's got no idea what's happening right now and why she is here. I walk over and just wrap my arms round him and he breaks down. All his emotions just spilling out, eventually he calms down and stops crying and he looks up at me and says "I don't ever want to lose you, no matter what happens with me and Sophie or you and Nick, I always want you in my life" I was about to respond when he suddenly leans in and kisses me. For a few seconds I kiss him back and then I come to my senses and stop it. "Joe, what are you doing!!!" "Oh fuck, I am so sorry, I don't know what came over me, I don't even know why I did that" "it's ok Joe, you were upset and not thinking but just so we are clear, I don't think of you in that way" "no, I know that, I'm really sorry, I think I should go now" "probably wise and I need to get ready anyway, I will see you back downstairs" he leaves and I am just stood there stunned about what just happened. Fuck, I know I am going to have to tell Nick at some point and I guess Joe will have to tell Sophie, oh my god, why did he have to do that!! Urgh ffs Joe!!
