Tracey
I wake up in the middle of the night and I turn my phone on and I have a million texts and voicemails from everyone wanting to know where I am. I suddenly feel really guilty. I didn't think about how anyone else would feel with me just disappearing and turning my phone off. I listen to all the voicemails and the last one from Nick just feels like a punch in the gut. He's saying how everything is his fault and perhaps I would be better off with someone else. I grab all my stuff, I have to go to Nick now. I know it's the middle of the night but I don't care. I get in a cab and head to Dani and Kevin's. Everyone is in bed so I creep in the house and instead of going to my room I go to Nick's. He is fast asleep bless him. I crawl into bed with him and it's like even though he's asleep he knew it was me because his arms went round me like a clamp, he was literally holding on dear life. It felt so good to be in his arms. I hear him mumble "I'm sorry baby. I love you" with that I drift off to sleep.
Nick
When I wake up Tracey is asleep in my arms she must have come back in the middle of the night. I don't want to wake her as she still looks quite pale so I try to slip out of bed quietly. I plant a kiss on her forehead and she stirs a little but she doesn't wake up. I head downstairs and nearly everyone is up. "Tracey's home, I don't know what time she came home but I woke up and she was there" "Oh thank god" says my mom, "How is she" Frankie asks " She's still sleeping, she looks quite pale so I didn't want to wake her just yet. Mom, can you help me make her some breakfast, I want to surprise her" "of course darling, what are you thinking, maybe some bacon and eggs?" "Yeah, and some toast too" once we've made breakfast I put it on a tray with some juice and some flowers that the girls picked for her from the garden and then head upstairs, she's still fast asleep. I put the tray down and crawl on the bed and hover over her and kiss her to wake her up she opens her eyes, before I can move away to get her breakfast she pulls me back down on top of her and kisses me. Suddenly I have forgotten I even brought her breakfast up. It like we are pouring every feeling we have felt over the past few weeks into this one kiss. I don't ever want it to stop. When it does she just looks at me and says "I don't want to be with, and couldn't imagine my life with anyone else, you are it for me!" "Marry me then" the words have left my mouth before I even know what I'm asking her. "One day Jonas, one day" she laughs I love how she calls me Jonas I know that's weird but I do "That's not a no" I tease, then she says "is that bacon I can smell" "it is babe, I brought you breakfast in bed" I put the tray in front of her "good, cos I'm fucking starving" "that's my girl" I kiss her head as she tucks into her breakfast.
Tracey
After I've finished breakfast I figure we need to talk about things and hopefully it doesn't end in another argument. "I think we should talk about things" "OK" he says apprehensively "So, let's start with the elephant in the room...the Joe thing. Don't be mad at him, he's been going through a lot and it's not my place to go into it but I think you should talk to him. He knows what he did was dumb, he wasn't thinking. He doesn't think of me like that, we are just friends. Please don't let this stupid thing become a bigger issue than it needs to, he's your brother and he loves you, he would never hurt you purposely, you know that. That brings us to me moving to LA next. So I did make a decision while I was here that I didn't get a chance to tell you, I have accepted the offer from my boss and I will be living in LA for the next year so I need to start looking at somewhere to live and before you say I can live with you, yes I can see the cogs turning babe. I think I should still find my own place but I guess I could stay with you until I find somewhere I like. I think I know why you got upset that I talked to Dani and Kevin about things and it wasn't that I didn't care what you thought or your opinion but you kind of had an ulterior motive for wanting me to be in LA and they were a neutral and objective party. Oh and if you call that a proposal then you can think again Jonas!! Ok I think I'm done! You go" I look up and I see him just smiling down at me "God I fucking love you" "I love you too. Now do you have anything to say in response"
Nick
I sit there and take in everything that she's just said and she's right I have no idea what Joe is going through and I do need to talk to him and make sure he's ok. "I don't even know where to begin, I think first and foremost I owe you a thousand apologies for so many things" "No, Nick you don't. We both played our part in all of this" "Yes, but I made you so stressed that you ended up in hospital" "Hey, stop. Don't go there, I am fine. Please, I don't want you blaming yourself for that" "How can I not, you said it started literally the first time things went wrong between us" "it doesn't matter anymore anyway, what's done is done, I just want to move on if that's what you want too" "I want that more than anything and I'm am so glad you are gonna stay with me for a bit. I am gonna make it so you never want to leave" "Hmmmm why does that not surprise me" she laughs "I will talk to Joe as well, if you are telling me it meant nothing then I believe you, maybe I haven't been a great brother if he's been going through all this and I didn't even know" "he didn't really tell anyone, he only really told me the other day because I obviously know some stuff about their relationship and I know Sophie, I don't think he planned to tell me it just got too much, I am glad he did though because he shouldn't be dealing with it all on his own. He is gonna need us to be there if their marriage really is over" "What about yours and Sophie's friendship" "I have no clue on that one, she hasn't called me and I haven't called her so who knows. I just want to focus on us for now, anything else can wait" "Are you officially my girlfriend now then?" "Are you asking me to be?" "Well if we're being technical I did ask you to be my wife but...." "Nick...." "I know I know. So yes I am asking you to be my girlfriend" she climbs on my lap and kisses me "is that a yes then" "of course it's a yes dumbass" "charming!!" "Aw you know I love you really" "yes, yes I do, we should probably go downstairs as I know everyone wants to see you. I mean I would rather keep you all to myself but I will have to learn to share you I guess. She just laughs, god I love hearing her laugh. Come on...up!!!" She groans as I drag her out of bed, she tries to tempt me by pulling me down on top of her and kisses me "Babe, as much as I would like nothing more than to be inside you right now, you are meant to be resting and taking it easy so that's gonna have to wait. "Urgh, you suck" she says and gets up of the bed and wiggles her bum as she walks out the room knowing full well that it is going to give me an instant boner!
