Sophie
The doorbell rings and I open it to see Tracey and she looks awful. She literally just collapses in my arms. I manage to get her to the sofa and get her some water. "What's happened?" "I don't even know where to start Soph" "Ok, where's all your stuff?" "Erm I kind of just left it all in Ireland. I just got on a plane and came here. God everything is such a mess" She suddenly jumps up off the sofa and runs to the bathroom and I hear her throwing up. Something doesn't seem quite right. I am not sure Nick even knows where she is. I can hear her phone ringing off the hook. I pick up my phone and call Joe "Hey, I can't really talk right now. Is everything ok with the girls?" "Yeah, yeah they are fine. I just thought you should know Tracey is here. She turned up on my doorstep a little while ago" "Tracey is there??" "Yeah she's here and she's clearly not well she's currently throwing up in the bathroom. Is Nick with you?? Can I talk to him?"
Nick
She's at Sophie's. What the fuck. I can't believe she ran away again. "Soph. Is she ok, can I speak to her?" "She's in the bathroom throwing up. Nick. I am only gonna ask this once. Is she pregnant??" "Why would you ask that?" "She is isn't she?" "Yes but she doesn't know because she ran away before I could tell her the results. "Do you want me to tell her" " No, I want to be the one to tell her. I need her to come back. Can you convince her to come back. We need to talk about things" "Why don't you let her stay here a few days. I will look after her. I promise I won't say anything to her but I honestly don't think she is in any state to travel and then you can talk to her when you get to London" "I don't really like the idea but ok. Please look after her and call me if anything happens!!" "I will I promise" "Soph, just tell her I love her and I am not angry with her. I have to go now. We need to finish soundcheck" I hang up the phone and head back to the others but my mind is definitely not on the show.
Tracey
I have stopped throwing up and come back out the bathroom. "I assume that was Nick you were talking to? How pissed off is he?" "He's ok. I told him you are gonna stay here and rest for a bit and then you will see him in London" "Wow! I bet he loved being told that" "He wasn't exactly jumping for joy but he agreed and said to tell you he loves you and he's not angry" "I have meetings this week so I should head to mine" "Erm no, what part of you are staying here to rest did you miss!! Why don't you go have a shower and then get into bed and I will bring you something small to settle your stomach a bit. "Soph? I'm pregnant aren't I??" The look on her face confirms everything I need to know. "You need to talk to Nick." "Soph, just tell me, if you don't I will just go and get another test and find out that way" "Trace, you need to talk to Nick". I know the show is starting soon but I need to know so I text him saying "CALL ME" within a millisecond my phone is ringing "Babe! what's wrong?" "I'm pregnant aren't I" the silence on the end of the phone is deafening "I didn't want to have this conversation on the phone and certainly not 5 minutes before I am due to go on fucking stage" he's getting really angry now. "Am I or aren't I Nick!!, just fucking tell me or I will go and find out for myself!!!" I am getting angry now too. His voice calms and he just says almost in a whisper "Yes, you are" "Baby, say something please?", "I have to go" is all I can manage to say and then I hang up the phone. My phone starts ringing and I know its him but I just can't at the moment so I just click the off button and I lay on the bed and just cry.
Sophie
I hear her on the phone to Nick and then I hear the sobs coming from the bedroom. I debate whether to go in or not but I decide against it. I need to let her process this in her own time. About half hour later I hear the shower then I hear her put the TV on. I knock gingerly on the door "come in" "Hey, the girls are asking if they can come see you as they know you are here, I can tell them you are not well though if you want" "No, no, its fine. Let them come in" The girls come dashing in and jump on the bed "Girls, be careful. Auntie Tracey is not feeling too well at the moment" They climb in and cuddle up with her and its so cute, I can't resist taking a picture and I send it to Nick just saying "give her some time to get used to the idea" I know they are on stage but he will get it after. I climb into the bed as well and say "what are we watching then" We watch a couple of films and after the second one finishes I look over and the girls and Tracey are fast asleep. I manage to get the girls out without waking her and put them to bed and I leave her to sleep, I can tell she is completely exhausted.
Nick
I can't concentrate on the show at all, the only thing I can think about is Tracey. I hate that she is not here right now, we need to be together figuring this out but maybe she does need some time to get her head round it. I check my phone and I see the picture that Sophie sent me, she looks so cute cuddled up with the girls. I text Sophie back just saying "thank you" "She's fast asleep right now, I promise I will get her to call you in the morning" "Ok thanks Soph" I am glad she is getting some sleep, she needs it, she has barely been sleeping these past couple of weeks. I will give her the few days to just rest and I hope she will cancel her meetings too and just rest. I send her a text even though I know her phone is off that says everything I want to say. "Babe, Please know that I love you more than anything and I cant wait to be able to call you my wife. I know that we did not plan this baby but its a blessing and I cant think of anything more amazing than having a human being in this world that is made up of all the best parts of us both. You will make an amazing mother, I see you with Joe and Kevin's girls and Malti, they all adore you. I know you are probably scared but just know I am all in!! I love you. Call me when you wake up xx
