♡•you found me • melanie martinez• ♡

☆♡do you even love me?♡☆

(Panic attack and sh)

Madis pov:
I wake up and as usual i walk out my room to the kitchen like i normaly do but his time mel hasnt made me food thats okay im sure shes busy i go up to mel to greet her "morning me-" she gives me a glare "go away stop annoying me" my face freezes she never askes like this towards me "wha-" i get cut off again "YOUR RUINING MY LIFE GOD I NEVER SHOULD HAVE TOOK PITY ON YOU!" I have never heard mel talk like this. it's scary. I run to my room i sit on my floor thinking about what she said "your ruining my life. "
It hurts hearing my mom talk like this about me i wake up in a panic it was a dream i cant breath it felt to real i cant stop thinking that maybe i am ruining her life i start hyperventilating im overthinking this i can feel the tears run down my face and i run to my only option to calm down i quickly take apart a sharpener my hands shake as i hold it to my wrist i know mel would want me to go to her before i cut but my dream is getting to me maybe i am ruining her life maybe im a huge burden on her i drag the blade across my skin blood drips down my wrists onto the floor almost instantly i let out a loud sob and the pain goes through my arm i do another then another and as im about to fo another someone walks in through the door i dont look up but i can tell from the gental hands around me its my mel and not charlie i look up to her as she takes the blade out of my hand she grabs my wrist not caring if blood gets on her hands she leads me toward the bathroom without saying a word she gets a damp rag and cleans up the blood then banages my arm "do you even love me?" She looks up at me instantly "ive loved you since the day you came here. What would make u think diffrent?" I shake my head."idk it was a stupid dream. " i look down, feeling a bit embarrassed "why didnt you come to me? " she holds my chin to look at her."i didn't want to ruin your life.." she looks at me in shock."ruin my life, baby, you made my life better." We hug, and she comes to bed with me