taylor
ella age: 10
rylee age: 5
gavin age: 1
it's been a very long day. gavin has been fussy constantly, but i think it's because he's hitting a growth spurt and with gavin constantly crying is putting the girls in bad moods. rylee has been whining and hanging on me while ella has just been angry with me as my temper has been short with them today. i don't think anyone slept last night with gavin crying. we live in a big house but god can that kid scream. we hear him over the baby monitor and his room is by the girls'.
"mom!" i hear ella scream while i'm the kitchen cooking dinner
"ella, if you wanna talk to me, come in here. i'm not screaming." i say loudly and she comes stomping in
"stop with the attitude, i've had it." i state while cooking some vegetables.
"i'm starving!" ella complains
"i know sweetie." i sigh "dad should be home soon. go sit with your siblings in the playroom" i continue. and she walks out after rolling her eyes. travis was supposed to home an hour from golfing with his friends. i just don't understand how one can be an hour late. i think i'm just frustrated because i feel like i did today completely by myself while he's out with his friends having fun. it's not even that, the kids are all hungry and tired, but travis asked me to hold off dinner so we can all eat as a family. sweet, right? yeah if he was hear when he said he was going to.
"hey, i'm home!" i hear travis announce from the door by the garage. i stay in the kitchen as the rooms are close to each other. i don't respond either as i'm quite pissed at him and i'm sure the kids couldn't hear him as they're on the other side of the house
"hey tay." he says quieter when he comes into the kitchen. he walks behind me and wraps his arms around my torso and puts his face into my neck and kisses me.
"what's wrong baby?" he asks once he realizes i'm not fazed by his affection
"trav not now." i mumble
"what happened?" he asks concerned and pulls back "are you mad at me for something?" he asks
"of course i'm mad!" i finally exclaim unable to hold it back anymore. travis jumps a bit in surprise of my outburst.
"what?" how is he so confused
"are you serious right now? you're an hour late home and told me to wait for you to have dinner! so now i have three hungry kids and couldn't sit still for the life of them today and someone was always crying or screaming and i had to deal with it all by myself while you were out with your friends. and it's fine that you go golfing with your friends, but really travis we had to wait an hour longer! it's just so careless of everything going on here. you know that no one slept last night and i even texted you saying how bad of a day i'm having so it's not like you wouldn't know!" i lash out at him. it feels so good to get that all out of me.
"tay, you literally told me to go! i said i would stay home with you because we had a rough night! and we got held up that's not my fault taylor!" he raises his voice
"don't you dare raise your voice at me travis. i'm so fucking exhausted and you are being no fucking help whatsoever." i say sternly as we are still standing behind the island.
"well you are making me out to be this horrible person who doesn't help or anything. i try my fucking best to handle everything but you only see when i fuck up not everything i do to make you and the kids fucking happy!" he exclaims
"ok stop, the kids are going to hear us." i say. i hate fighting in front of the kids and i know travis does too. we both are from homes of divorced parents and we don't want that for our babies
"already did." i hear a voice and we both turn to see our three children standing there. rylee and ella are standing there and gavin is on ella's hip.
"shit." i curse under my breath and go over to them.
"i'm so sorry babies. i didn't mean for you guys to hear that." i apologize and take gavin from ella and he immediately clings to me
"ella, why don't you go put something on tv for you and rylee." i suggest and the two leave the room. i keep gavin on my hip and go back over to the stove.
"ok, are we gonna talk or will you just stay mad at me?" travis asks
"were you not just in hear when the kids heard us cursing each other out." i snap at him
"ok tay calm down, let me take gavin." he says and move towards me to take gavin from my arms, but i quickly move away.
"no stop, if you wanna help so much, you can finish dinner." i say
"tay, you can't just not let me near my son." travis says obviously hurt by my actions
"i never said that. just leave me alone." i brush off and take gavin upstairs to the bedroom for us to lay down for a bit.
we lay up there for bit. i play around with gavin for a bit and make him laugh.
travis comes up a bit later to inform me dinner was ready.
"taylor, i'm really sorry. i should've at least called you when i was running late. i love you so much. just please don't me mad anymore. i hate it when your mad, i just want my happy wife back." he pleads to me. i can't help but smile at my guy.
"it's okay trav. thank you for apologizing. i shouldn't have snapped at you. i'm sorry." i admit
"you don't need to apologize tay. let's go eat dinner, ok? god only knows what those crazy kids of ours are doing." he says making me laugh.
"ok let's just put this behind us." i say and stand up with gavin. trav gives me a nod of acknowledgment and kisses my cheek.
gavin reaches up and puts his arms around my neck and mumbles "mama"
"oh no no buddy." travis says "you've had her all day. it's my turn with mommy." he says and i can't help but laugh.
the rest of the evening goes by great. we apologize to the kids for our arguing, eat dinner then watch a movie with the kids which ends with them all passed out in the theater. we take them up to their room. trav with the girls and i take gavin. finally, trav and i get to bed and go to sleep.
