taylor
ella: age 2
kansas city, missouri
travis and i have been celebrating my birthday this evening at a christmas bar in kansas city after the game today and we've had such a fun time. we're with a lot of friends and family so it's been a great time. there was lots of drinking, pda, and more.
however, we are pretty drunk right now. neither travis nor i can walk straight
"babe, they're about to kick us out." travis says from behind me "they're closing in five minutes." he continues to say then plants a kiss on my cheek making me giggle to myself
"they're no fun." i protest and he laughs at me and pull me into a bear hug
"did you enjoy your little party?" he whispers to me and i nod my head.
"should we get going?" he asks again and i nod again into his chest
"ok let me start rounding people up." he says and walks away and i go back to dancing with Britney. somehow we ended up jumping and twirling like little girls in a matter of seconds. our men come and get us a few minutes later and tell us it's time to leave. i say my last goodbyes to a lot of people and thank them for coming.
travis and i were one of the last out of there since we were the ones who rented the place out.
"there's paparazzi across the street on the rooftop." one of my security guard inform me.
"oh my god." i groan and throw my head back exaggerating
"tay c'mon i'm taking us home." travis says as we walk to the door
"trav no." i stop and get into the right headspace
"what do you mean? my car's here." he asks as we walk
"no you're not driving. i don't care." i protest
"i don't want anyone driving the rolls but me." he argues as we stop at the threshold of the door
"oh well. find someone else to drive it." i state and he groans and pulls out his phone. i really don't care if he's mad at me. neither of us are in the right place to be driving now and we have a kid at home we need to get back to.
"have one of my security people do it, i promise they won't wreck it." i say
"hang on." he states and walks out to his car and opens the door. i follow him before he gets in
"don't you dare get in that car travis." i threaten
"i'm not. i'm just checking it out." he explains
"travis come on, security can drive the rolls home and we go in another car. don't be stupid, we have a daughter at home." i say. right when i say the last part he looks up. i knew that would get him to snap out of it. he would drop anything in the world if it was for his daughter.
"ok let me just give them the keys. go to the car, it's freezing, i'll meet you there." he says and walks over to some security standing by the door. i get into the car and wait for him. i cannot believe he was about to get into that car as drunk as he is.
"ok, let's go." he sighs as he slides in next to me. i don't respond to him i'm just so mad.
"what, are you mad or something?" he asks snippy. i just shake my head and roll my eyes at him.
"tay." he says and grab my hand and i pull away
"ok, what's with you. you were just frolicking around that bar and now you look as if you're about to kill me."
"because travis you wanted to get into that car and risk your life when you have a family and a whole life, you could've just thrown it all away." i snap at him slurring a few words here and there
"but tay i didn't. god and here i was thinking i was gonna get lucky when we got home." he protests
"not anymore." i state and look out the window
we get home after a quiet car ride and i go right upstairs to check on ella while travis can handle the babysitter downstairs.
i open my little girl's bedroom door and walk over to her bed as i can't see her from the threshold.
she's sleeping peacefully. i pull her comforter up a little to fully cover her and i lean down and kiss her little cheek.
"mommy." ella groans sleepily
"hey princess, go back sleep baby." i say and brush the loose locks of hair out of her face and she slowly goes back to sleep as i cup her little cheek and rub my thumb against her face. i slowly leave her room and go back to the bedroom
i quickly get out of my clothes and get in the shower. i made sure to lock the bathroom door so travis can't come in. the shower sobers me up quite a bit. after the shower i dry myself off, put my robe on, and wrap my brushed hair in a towel. i do some skincare and brush my teeth. i finally leave the bathroom and go into the bedroom and see travis sitting on the couch scrolling on his phone.
"tay can we talk?" he asks calmly
"i need to change." i mumble and walk to my closet. i throw on a pair of big sweats and an oversized t shirt.
"we'll talk in the morning." i state once i'm back in the room and walk over to the bed
"tay c'mon we can't go to bed angry." travis pleads and i turn to him still on the couch
"i know but trav c'mon on you we're about to make a really fucking stupid mistake that could've impacted not only our lives but our daughter's life." i state
"i know tay and i'm really fucking sorry. i thought i was fine, but i know now that i wasn't. i'm so sorry that i made you mad or even scared you a bit. i never want to do that. i love you and i'm sorry that i messed up." he explains. he said everything he needed to. god damn it i can't be mad at him when he says that
