Can she get out?

Chapter 2~ Im only a phone call away

I woke up to a slap on my face. I jump out of bed shocked and confusion running through my mind, what the hell, I yell. The look on his face changed from shock to anger. I shouldn't have done that. Shivers started going down my spine as he walked toward me. What the hell did you just say, he says loudly grabbing my wrist with a tight grip. N-Nothing, I stutter out. That's what I thought, he says slinging me against the wall. I crash into the wall and my body hits the floor. Go make breakfast, he yells at me. I bit my lip and squeeze my eyes shut hold back the tears. I gather myself quickly as I head to the kitchen and make breakfast. After I make breakfast I put Zach's play on the table and make a plate for Lilian. I wasn't eating because the thought of eating wanted to make me throw up. Your foods don't, I say to Zach. Took you long enough, he says as he sits down and eats. I take that as my cue to leave and get Lilian ready.

Baby it's time to get up, I say rubbing her cheek. Morning mommy, she says a she hugs me. Morning baby, I say with a smile. She was the only person they kept me going, that made me truly happy. If it wasn't for her I don't even think I would be here right now. I made breakfast let's get you dressed first okay, I say as I pick her up. I get her dressed into some leggings and a pink sweater. It was chilly outside so I didn't want her to be cols. After I got her dressed I washed her face and helped her brush her teeth, before putting her hair in two braids. Mama did daddy hit you again, she asks me while touching my cheek. I look in the mirror and see a bruise forming on my face. Don't worry about me baby im fine okay, I say giving her a slight smile. But mama he hurts you, she says tears starting to form in her eyes. I know baby we're gonna be leaving him soon I promise, I say placing a kiss on her forehead. Pink promise, she says holding out her pinky. Pinky promise, I say interlocking out pinky's. I wipe her tears and take her out into the kitchen to eat breakfast. Thankfully Zach had left. Lilian didn't have a close relationship with Zach which I was thankful for he didn't even bother to talk to her. Lilian wasn't very fond of Zach either because she's seen first hand how'd he treat me. I hate whenever she has to see what he does to me, I never wanted her to see any of it but she's a smart child and I'm glad I raised her that way. It's kind of hard not telling anyone about her when I'm basically raising her alone because Zach doesn't do anything. But at the same time I'm doing the best I can.

By the time I get to the station I'm about 10 minutes late because I had to apply makeup to all my bruises. Once I got into the locker room I got greeted by Lucy. She had recently made detective last year. Me and Nyla helped her study and turns out she's a great detective. Me and Lucy had always been close. I knew at the end of the day if I needed any help I could always go to her. That's something I always admired about Lucy. She was always there to help people even when she was struggling. I remember this one time I was at her apartment we were just hanging out, watching movies and drinking when Lucy's mom showed out of nowhere. I always knew she didn't have the best relationship with her parents but I didn't know it was that bad. Her mom basically called her out for being a disappointment saying how she wish she never had Lucy. That was the first time I ever saw Lucy in pain and it hurt to see her like that. I'm used to seeing her happy bubbly side but not side to see her in pain. It hurt to see her that way and I never want to see her in pain again. I even learned she self harmed during the visit. I never knew Lucy would do those things but I learned the hard way most happy people are silently struggling. 

Hey Ang, Lucy says with a smile. Hey Luce how are you, I say with a smile putting my things in my locker. I'm getting there what about you, you look exhausted, she says moving closer to me. Long night, I say closing my eyes and leaning my head back the memories replaying in my mind. She pulls my head down to face her, her thumb still on my chin, if you need help getting out I'm only a call away, I can't have you getting hurt, and I won't let you get hurt, I've seen the bruises Ang I know what's going on but I can't do nothing until you talk to me, she says. It's not that easy it's a lot more complicated, I say my voice barely whisper. I'm here when you wanna talk, she says wiping my tears then leaving the room.

Lucy's POV
I've seen the signs. I know she's being abused and it pains me to know I can't do anything about it. She has to tell anyone for any action to be taken. Her smile doesn't reach her eyes any more. Her laugh is forced. The spark in her eyes were gone. She was eating less, and she was losing weight. I don't know if anyone else has noticed but I sure as hell have. I was really close with Angela so it was easy for me notice the smallest changes in her. I miss seeing her smile and hearing her real laugh. I just want to see her happy again. I cared for Angela deeply and had a soft spot for her. I miss happy Angela and I'll do anything to help her get herself back again.

Angela's POV
I've been working on a difficult case and it was similar to my situation. A mother and daughter physical abused by the husband until they both died from internal bleeding. The husband was in the wind. No traces we didn't have any leads on where he was. Thoughts started to fill my mind. What if me and Lilian ended up like them. Or what if I got killed and she was left with that monster. I knew I had to get us out but how. Then Lucy's words started flooding my mind. "If you need help getting out I'm only a call away", I could tell Lucy but she would look at me differently, she would think I was weak. I didn't want anyone looking at me differently but all that mattered was Lilian. If I did ask her for help would she understand my situation due to Lilian or would she push me away. But Lucy isn't like that she's caring and she's always been there for me hell she still is. All these thoughts are making my head pound. Hell I don't even remember the last time I ate, I'm trying to watch my weight. Zach says I need to lose weight so I'm listening to him. Lucy and Nyla pull me out of my thoughts, hey we're going to the food trucks you coming, Nyla asks me with a smile. No thanks I'm not really hungry, I say trying to avoid Lucy's eyes on me. Nope you're eating come on, Lucy says grabbing my hand and pulling me out of the station with Nyla.

When we arrived at the food trucks Nyla already left to go get her food just leaving me and Lucy. I'll get your food what do you want, Lucy asks me. I'm not hungry, I say sitting down. Angela you need to eat, it doesn't have to be much but you need to eat, she says with concern in her voice. Salad, I say turning my head to look at her. Real food Angela, she said. I closed my eyes and took a deep breath before answering, fine a burger. She nodded and walked off. I only ate half of my burger before I went to the bathroom to throw it up. Before I could stick my fingers down my throat someone grabbed my hand and stopped me. Don't, Lucy says. I can't, my voice barely above a whisper. Yes you can, if you feel it coming hold your head back to try and stop it, you have got to keep food in your system or you're gonna end up dead and I don't won't to see you dead Ang, she says softly. I close my eyes stopping the tears from flowing. You're gonna stay with me for the rest of the day so I can keep an eye on you, she says and I just nod my head.

It's finally end of shift and I'm getting my stuff out my locker, I'm only a call away, Lucy says with a smile before she leaves the locker room. I take in her words before I go and pick Lilian up. Hey sweetheart how was your day, I say as she gets in the car. Hey mama it was really good we painted in art class and I made you a picture, she says handing me a picture of me and her on it. Awww thanks sweetheart it's beautiful, I say with a smile. Once we get to the house it's dark. Thats means Zach isn't home which I'm grateful for. I watch tv with Lilian for a little bit before I start dinner. After she eats dinner I give her a bath and get her ready for bed. I love you sweetheart, I say as I kiss her forehead. I love you too mama, she says before closing her eyes and drifting off. I take in the sight of her sleeping before I head out to the kitchen and start cleaning up. As I'm washing dishes Zach walks in the house. Hey, I say quietly turning my attention back to the dishes. He doesn't say anything he just goes into the bedroom. He comes up to me  placing kisses on my neck. I'm not in the mood, I say as I push him slightly. He grabs me by my throat and proceeds to whisper in my ear, your mine and I do what ever I want to you, he says which sends shivers down my spine. Next thing I know I'm in the bedroom begging for him to stop but he doesn't listen. I've come to the conclusion that I'm good enough to be fucked not loved.