When Stars Align

Chapter 16

"You've had sex with a girl before... right?" I try to casually as Leah as she's working on her sculpture.

She quickly drops her tools to spin around and look at me dead on. She is narrowing her eyes at me, studying my face. My eyes go wide watching this play out and I gulp.

"I haveeee... why do you ask?" She tilts her head in question with a teasing smile tugging at her lips.

"Oh well I was just.. you know like.. curious about it. Like um... how to do... a good job?" I drag out the sentence with pure embarrassment. I drop my head into my hands and groan.

"Does this have anything to do with you and your girlfriend?" Leah questions further, not answering my question.

I let out a long sigh. Leah was so excited when I told her about Jamie asking me to be her girlfriend. She's been nothing but supportive this whole time and I'm so happy to know I have a friend like her. She's never questioned me about the physical part of this relationship, she knows that I'm a virgin. Not by choice, it's entirely situational. I've never had a romantic interest, always living in such a small town, and I'm not into meeting people online, I've always wanted it to happen organically, and it never did... until now. And now that it HAS happened, I don't want to jump into things, and I'm also just really nervous about... well about not being good at it. I want to make Jamie feel good and if I can't... well I might just never show my face again.

"Yes!" I practically yell in frustration. "We got... um... pretty wrapped up in each other after everyone left the beach the other night and... well we both really want to have sex, I'm just trying to make sure I'm ready and she's being so so sweet about it even though I know she's practically ready to crawl out of her own skin with want." I say as I start blushing thinking about how hot it is knowing she's so flustered and needy over me.

I clear my throat and try to shake those thoughts of Jamie away.

"I want to be ready but... but I'm also scared" I manage to confess.

Leah's expression goes from one of shock to one of sympathy.

"First of all, you guys are like really hot like damn" she says with a laugh over my description of Jamie struggling at the beach and I blush even harder.

She comes to sit beside me on the bench at her cabin.

"And about being scared.. hunny, everyone is before their first time. I know I certainly was. I know it's nerve wracking, especially when you have feelings involved and you don't want to disappoint." She puts her arm around my shoulder and holds me close as she continues.

"But, you guys really like each other. And you really want each other. I imagine it feels good when you have moments like at the beach right?" She adds on and pauses for my response and I nod in agreement and for her to continue.

"Exactly, and are you nervous about what to do then? Or does it just come naturally in the heat of the moment?" She tilts her head at me waiting for my answer.

"I mean yeah, I just do what feels good, but it's so different. Making out is not the same as sex" I say with an exaggerated sigh.

"You're right, it's not the same. But I'm just showing you that during these moments, your body kind of takes over and sure you'll still be nervous, but you're going to want to do so many things to her that I know you'll be good." She ends with a smile and squeezes her arm around me once more.

I smile and absorb her words. I know she's right, I know in the heat of the moment we do things that feel good. But sex is so different.

"Also, if you're really worried. Just do things that you know feels good for you or that you want her to do to you. That's what I did for my first time and it seemed to work well. That's the best thing about sleeping with women, you already know the anatomy and what feels good" Leah finishes with a smile. And yeah, that actually makes sense. I do know my body. I know how to make myself feel good, so I'm sure I can try to do the same with Jamie.

"Thank you Leah, you're the best" I say with a grateful smile.

"Don't I know it!" She says, getting up to return to her sculpture.

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I find myself pacing around the kitchen on the morning of the first day of fall. I've finally gotten all my pictures taken for the competition and they're now starting to develop in my dark room. I'm so nervous about how they'll turn out. If they're horrible, I can kiss this competition goodbye. I think about all the shoots I've done in the past few weeks and I'm sure there has to be some winning pictures somewhere in there. But only time will tell.

I sigh at myself knowing that this pacing isn't going to speed up the process and it's just going to take a few days until they're ready. I make myself stop walking around and I figure some fresh air will do me well since I've been stuck in this house this whole day.

I go to open the door and I'm shocked when I see Jamie with her fist held up as if she was just about to knock.

"Jamie!" I shout in surprise holding my hand over my heart trying to slow my heart rate from the scare.

"Sorry! I didn't mean to scare you I was just about to knock" Jamie says with a slight laugh.

"What are you doing here? Besides scaring me senseless of course" I say with a teasing look, still coming down from the fright.

"Again, I'm so sorry, darling" she says sympathetically.

"It's okay, I'm just teasing" I say with a smile and then raise my brows at her for her to explain why she's here.

"Well, I actually just wanted to see you, really" Jamie says with a shy smile and I just shake my head at her and grab her shirt to pull her inside with me.

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"I should probably head home, it's getting pretty late" Jamie says with sadness in her voice as she frowns at her watch.

We spent the evening watching movies and making dinner together with some more intense making out of course, and I finally fully believe what Leah was telling me. It really does come natural and I have so many ideas in my head for that moment.

After the last movie ended, we somehow ended up laying in my bed to just talk and cuddle up to each other and it was... nice. Sure it's great to touch and kiss the beautiful woman laying next to me, but these are the moments where I can feel our connection getting even deeper and it means everything to me.

"I don't want you to go" I say as I look up at her from where my head lays on her chest. I wrap my arm around her waist and hold her tight and she signs into the touch and kisses the top of my head.

"I don't want to go either, darling. I never want to leave when I'm with you if I'm being honest" she says while shaking her head and I can only smile at her.

I trace the curve of the waist lightly with my fingers and I just enjoy being with her for these last few moments.

"What are you doing tomorrow night?" Ask with a hopeful tone. The pictures will be fully developed in my dark room and since she helped me with a lot of the shoots. It's only fair that she's the first to see the results. That's also the last part of me that she hasn't seen. No one has ever been in my dark room, and I want to let her in.

"Hmm, I assume hanging out with you?" Jamie lightly says the words with a chuckle, looking down at me.

"Come over after 8, there's something I'd like to show you" I say as I plant a kiss on her shoulder under me.