We Were Bound By Music - boatboys/smalletho

Chapter 14

Etho's POV:

"Good, lets start simple...how is Cleo feeling?"

"I-I...we haven't talked."

Actually we did, but I wouldn't call it a conversation or anything simmular to that.

"I didn't want to talk to her..."

He narrowed his brown eyes. I still wasnt sure if he seen or heard that I fainted. Maybe he doesnt even know what Cleo said to me?

"...but Cleo didn't listen, she wanted to explain, and she even tried but then..."

Poor Cleo, she was just an informer, it's not her who should be in my sights now, but my father. Unfortunately or fortunately, he is not here, and my anger was aimed to Cleo.

"Then...I yelled at her. Harshly"

Of course I wasn't proud of yelling at her. She never diserved me, and this situation proves that point. She's to good for me.

"I was too harsh to her, she didnt diserve it, it's not her fault"

It was hard to look him in the eye, but that's what he wished for, so that's the least I could do to reward him for sitting here for a long time.

"It's your father's right?"

I flinched uncontrollably when I heard the word "Father" again, it shouldn't stress me out so much or even disgust me, but my family... that's a different topic.

"Yes. His fault. But, also...half mine"

I have to tell him. Not many people know about this disease, but if anyone else needed to be informed about it, I would want it to be Joel.

"Don't say that-"

"No Joel, you-you dont know the whole situation. Plus you're worrying too much, I'm already used to it"

"Used to...your father?"

"Actually no, that was... definetly unexpected."

I never would have thought that he would find out about my existence or even find me.

"I'm sorry I don't know what you're talking about then?"

I sighed again.

It's hard to explain...everything, but I'll try my best.

For Joel.

"I'm used to fainting. It wasnt as big of a deal as you thought it was, and Cleo was feeling to stressed in the moment to informate you 'bout that when I fainted in front of you."

At least that's what I thought happened. I still wasn't sure if he saw my scene of fainting but in the back of my mind I remember hearing him call 911 and another voice...yeah...it was definetly Cleo's voice! She...told him...ugh...I can't recall!

"I know it can sound...weird or crazy but I-I faint a lot, esspesialy in stressing situations like that one"

"H-how?"

"It's a genetic disease. My...dad...has the same one. It's only one of the side effects."

It's always hard to talk about it. Luckily I only had to explain it twice, excluding Joel. I dont like attention. And a genetic disease that causes fainting? That's causing attention.

"Etho. We dont need to talk about it...I-maybe I was...maybe it's to early? I mean you just came back from the hospital room, after you were unconcious and I'm forcing you to tell me what happene-"

Exhausted face, his fingers tapping on his lap, more visible eye bags and a worried face expression all this time.

"Etho? Are you okay?"

"No Joel."

"What happened?" His face tensed.

His still cold hands rested on my shoulders.

"Joel, I should be the one asking about your wellbeing...I haven't noticed how worried you were, and it could've been traumatic for you...I-I mean the whole experience, and our first meeting was fine until Cleo called and...you know what happened. Joel, you're not the one that should be apologizing, worrying or asking how I'm doing."

I'm sorry Joel, if I wouldn't write that lyrics on your cup we would've never met again.

And that would be for better.

"Joel, are you okay? Answer me trurly...please"

He was silent.

It's...not normal.

He always answsered my questions as quick as he could, but now...

...why doesn't he?

"Joel?"

He didn't answer me for a while, but finally I heard what he actually thought.

"I'm...not fine, I-I was so worried about you when you didnt respond I didn't know what to do! And when I called 911...I never called 911, I didn't know what to say! And when they took you by the stretcher to the ambulance, I didn't know what to do with myself, so then I got a taxi to this hospital and I waited here for you...and then Grain came, why did he come here?! He shouldnt come here! Stupid chairs and this stupid green door and this ANNOYING AS F*CK CLOCK!" He quickly stood up from his chair and angry, pointed his middle fingers at the clockin front of us.

W-what?..

I was...stunned and shoked.

I didn't know...

He's just a normal person, with - probobly - a normal life, meeting me: a disaster.

I don't know how many times I want to say this to him but...

...I'm so fucking sorry Joel...

He lowered his finger and, breathing more steadily, sat back down on the uncomfortable chair next to me and, looking straight ahead, continued.

"I was scared. And exhausted. I'm still scared...Not everyday you need to pick the phone up and call an ambulance."

"I'm so sorry Joel..."

Why did I let him into my life...

"Etho, no, I..."

He didn't even finish.

I'm pathetic. The only thing I can say is: sorry? I-I gave...I...

Deep breath, Etho... Don't faint again.

"Maybe...we'll just leave it? To the past. We've already agreed to start from the beggining, but I pushed you to explain what happened yesterday, so maybe we'll actually start from now? And...I'm sor-"

"No Joel, you have a ban of saying that word!" He's such a sweetheart...but he doesn't need to appologize...now or never...unlike me... "And yes...I would like to start from the beginning"

I wanna hug Etho...

Yeah I know, that I was the one that created him and his life but still.

Have a cookie, darlin' *🍪*

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