NOT OUR AGE

Chapter 12: Upset ?!

Lauren's POV

It was not in my plan to have our first sex tonight. I only planned to kiss her, to ask her out, and to make her my girlfriend. That was it. I did not plan it, but I could not help it. Kissing her turned me on easily. I did not know how kissing her could feel so unbelievably good that I could not stop kissing her. So, I went with the flow as my desire for her grew further. I wanted her so bad. I knew everything happened so fast after holding back for months, but I would not stop myself from following the increasing passion I had for her.

"I'm sorry," I apologized when I saw the look on her face. She looked shocked. "I want you." I had no other reason. I did not want to make any excuses, too. I wanted her, I wanted to get to know her intimately.

She gulped before she told me, "I am not ready." She looked away from my eyes, "I am just..." She looked a bit nervous.

"You don't have to justify yourself," She did not have to explain why she was not ready. If she were not ready, I would not insist and ask for a reason, even though a little part of me wanted to know why. "I understand, everything happened out of the blue and so fast in one day." Everything happened in one day, even less than twelve hours: kissing her, taking her out for our first date, and asking her to be my girlfriend. I would not blame myself tho. I had been holding back for more than two seasons.

"Yeah..." She said in a gentle voice. "Thank you!"

"Are you sleepy now?" I asked her, thinking she probably needed alone time to process everything that happened today. I needed time, too, even though I would not mind spending the rest of the night with her by my side.

"Yeah..." She looked awkward. I hoped I did not scare her away. I did not want her to wake up the next morning and change her mind, telling me, that she wanted to break up with me as she was not ready. It would be my biggest failure in life.

"Let's end the night!" I turned off the TV and stood up. I gave my hand for her to take. She took it and stood up, following. I turned off the light before we left the family living room before midnight.

She was quiet and avoided my eyes as we walked to the stairs. I held her hand in mine as we ascended the stairs, going up to where our rooms were. We stopped after we reached the second floor. Her room was on the left side where the three bedrooms are, while my master bedroom was on the right side of the house. The two sides of the house were connected by a catwalk. We stopped there before we went to our rooms.

"Sweet dreams, Camila!" I kissed her on the forehead. "See you tomorrow morning!"

"You, too. See you tomorrow!" She smiled. It was not a full smile. She did not say it but I knew she felt awkward after rejecting me for having sex. She should not have felt that way. "Good night." She turned around and headed to the guest room, the last of the three rooms on the left. She turned around once and smiled at me who was standing here, looking at her. I went to my room after she disappeared into her bedroom.

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I was out of my bathroom and checked my phone before I went to bed. I saw a message from Camila that had been sent more than ten minutes ago. I wondered why she texted me. It could not be something urgent. If it were urgent she would call me or knock on my door since she was just at the opposite end of my room. I read the message.

Camila: Hi

Camila: Lauren.

I replied to her immediately. I did not call her in case she had fallen asleep.