𝐕𝐢𝐠𝐢𝐥𝐚𝐧𝐭𝐞 𝐬𝐡𝐢𝐭 |𝟏𝟖+|

Chapter fifty (part 1)

Um, fifty chapters.....how did that happen?
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Pollie Ashford's POV

The lazy days after Christmas were always the best. If it were any other year, that is.

But this year, I couldn't stop my mind from wandering to a certain guy who left me before we got to experience our first Christmas together.

But as much as my heart liked the idea of wallowing in bed for the foreseeable future, my brain did not.

Ever since that chat with my mom and sister the other night, it was like something switched in my bravado.

When I met Romeo, he was the type of guy who didn't give a fuck. So call me crazy but I wanted my to try that out for myself.

Yeah, sure, maybe I still shed a tear before I go to sleep each night. Or maybe I even feel exhausted after a full day of pretending to be strong, but I wasn't weak.

I refuse to be weak.

"Poll doll, there's no shame in admitting you still miss him you know?" I was currently on a three way call with Zero and Miguel.

They call me like this everyday, so it's safe to say that they've experienced my shiny new facade firsthand.

"Miss who?" My lip curled up as I faked ignorance.

"Pollie..."

"I'm messing with you, of course I miss Enzo."

Zero shook his head smiling as Miguel fell of his chair laughing.

New Year's Eve was in two days and they both offered to fly in to share it with me. But as much as I would love to see them in person again, I knew they had families and I didn't want to tear them away from them.

But I had been waking up with a constant knot in my stomach because New Year's Eve was also my birthday. And before shit hit the fan, Rome was planning to celebrate it with me.

And I know it shouldn't internally feel like my life is over just because my boyfriend broke up with me, but I guess when you find the one and they leave you, it really hits different.

"I'll tell Zoey you said that." Miguel had returned to the screen and was now stripping himself of the shirt he was wearing.

"Guel, put your clothes back on you freak. Pollie doesn't need to see all that."

I laughed as Guel licked his hand before slowly running it down his abs and moaning, making me blush just because I shouldn't be seeing him do this.

"Come on Z, look at her. She loves me. Poll, you wanna see my-"

Suddenly my phone started ringing, a welcome distraction to the words that were about to spew from Miguel's mouth.

But when I turned my phone over, I read the contact name that had never called me before. Xavier Colton.

"Guys, just wait a minute. Someone's calling me." I had FaceTime open on my laptop whilst Xavier rang my phone.