ᴍʏ ᴅᴀᴅ'ꜱ ʙᴇꜱᴛ ꜰʀɪᴇɴᴅ. {ᴊᴇɴꜱᴇɴ ᴀᴄᴋʟᴇꜱ ꜰᴀɴ ꜰɪᴄ}

Chapter 7

It was the next day. Jensen went on about his day, trying to focus. He did everything he did every day and something just felt off. May was up but didn't want to go downstairs. She didn't want to look at his face. She felt stupid and disgusted. She couldn't believe she felt something for him...he was 27 years older than her. She tossed and turned and cried. She felt awful. She was hungry, but she knew that if she went downstairs she would see him. So she decided to call Nina.
Nina:" h- awe whats wrong why are you crying..."
Me:" bring me food and I'll tell you.. and come tru the back.. i don't want to see him.."
Nina:" okay.. ill be there in 25"
I hang up. I get up and brush my teeth. I take a quick shower and lay back down. After a few minutes Nina texts me she was here. I open the door trying to make as little noise as possible. I go down the stairs slowly and hear Jensen in his office talking. I tip toe to the back and open the door. I saw Nina smiling. We walk to the stairs and i let her go in front of me. I started going upstair.
Jensen:" May"
I froze. My heart dropped. I swallow the lump in my throat. I didn't turn around.
Me:"y-yea?"
Jensen:" are you okay?"
Me:" yes I'm okay."
Jensen:" are you-"
Me:" yes I'm sure"
Before he could say another word i ran upstairs. I go to my room and lock it.
Nina:" okay spill."
I sat down and ate while telling her everything.
Nina:" wait wait wait.. he put his hand in your thigh????"
I roll my eyes.
Me:" is that all you got from the story i just told you..?
Nina:" listen. 1. He didn't get weirded out..2 HE STAYED AFTER YOU TOLD HIM. He wants you..."
I started thinking. No. No.
Me:" Nina.. you are just feeding my mind with delusions..."
I thought about it and ended up crying. Nina hugged me and just stayed there.

Jensen's POV
Before i could finish my sentence, she ran up the stairs. She was avoiding me. I felt bad, but i had to give her her space. I couldn't force her to do anything. I take a deep breath and go to my office. I sit down, lay back, and just breathe. I wanted to take a drink. I did. So bad. I open the drawer and pull the bottle out. I look at it. I wanted to so bad. I take a deep breath again and just start going in circles in my chair.
Me:" fuck..."
I cant tell her..if this "thing" that she feels for me is gone..I'll just look stupid. I stop spinning and just take the bottle and drink from it. After a few minutes..the bottle was gone.
Me:" fuck"
I go to the kitchen and throw the bottle away and lock myself in my room before I did anything stupid.

May's POV
I had asked Nina to go downstairs to check if Jensen was around. He wasn't. We both go downstairs. We were in the kitchen being quiet. I went to throw away a rapper and seen an empty bottle of whiskey. Which i knew that 2 days ago was full. I knew he didnt drink much yesterday. My blood boiled.
Nina:"..hey you okay..?"
Me:" he is drinking again."
Nina:" want me to leave?"
Me:"I'll call you after."
She nods and leave. I take a deep breath. What I'm about to do can go wrong in so many ways. I walk to Jensens room and bang on the door. It was locked. Fuck.
Me:" Jensen. Open the door."
I kept banging until it opened. Jensen couldn't look at me in the eyes. So all he did was look at the ground.
Me:" you cant even look straight at me."
Jensen:" hey May.."
Me:" God. You reek."
He looked at me.
Jensen:" I'm sorry.."
I pushed him into his room turning on the light.
May:" that ain't going to cut it Jensen."
Jensen:" look *he almost falls* I'm sorry okay"
Me:" sit before you fall and hurt yourself."
He sits. Pouting. He is such a child.
Me:" what is pushing you to drink? You were doing so well..."
He was staring at the ground.
Me:" Jensen."
Jensen:" what."
Me:" i asked you a question."
He smiles. He looks up at me.
Me:" why are you smiling."
He starts laughing. Great. Its kicking in.
Me:" Jensen..come one"
Jensen:" you're cute when you're mad.."
My heart drops. Great.
Me:" Haha.. no.. don't do that."
Jensen:" do what?"
He puts his hands behind him as support.
Me:" flirt your way out of this because of yesterday."
Jensen:" you think i want a way out of this? Nah.."
I take a deep breath.
Me:" Jensen. I need you to talk to me...let me help you.."
Jensen:" i got something you can help with.."
He smiles and stares at me.
Me:" Jesus Christ."
I leave his room and just go to mine. He done pissed me off. I take a deep breath. I put in a pair of sweat pants and a random shirt. I put on my shoes and go downstairs. I didn't let Jensen know.  I got in my car and drove to the beach. I parked the car. I stood there for a while. Just thinking. I get out and go walk. I get a call. It was Jensen. I roll my eyes and answer.
Me:" what Jensen"
Jensen:" awe love..dont be mad at me.."
Me:"look. Im not in the mood. Why did you call."
Jensen:" did you leave?"
Me:" yes."
Jensen:" where."
Me:" out. Anything else"
Jensen." Where are you.."
Me:" Beach Jensen. Im at the Beach."
I heard him take a deep breath.
Jensen:" okay love.. when are you coming home?"
Me:" i don't know"
I don't like the way he is acting. At all.
Jensen:" stop being mad at me."
I hang up the phone. I received about 13 missed calls from him before i turned off my phone. I sat down on the sand. I didn't cry. I just sat. I couldn't think about anything. My mind was blank. I closed my eyes and let the breeze hit me. It was calming. After a few hours i got up and got in my car. I turned on my phone. It started buzzing like crazy. I ignored it. I got food and drove home. I opened the door and went straight for the kitchen. I ate my food. The house was silent. I grab some pills and a water bottle. I go to Jensens room. I didn't knock. I open the door and head straight to the bathroom. I open it and see Jensen on the floor with his knees to his chest.
Me:" here"
I give him the pills and water. He looks at me and takes them. He looked sad. I hated seeing him like this.. i haven't seen him like this since he got divorced. I crouch down.
Me:" Jensen..."
He looks at me with tears...Ive never seen him cry.
Jensen:" im sorry..."
A single tear ran down his face. I didn't know what to say... so i just sit next to him and lay my head on his shoulder. He grabs my hand. I didn't know whether to pull away or leave it there.
Me:" it's okay.. i just want you to be okay.."
He squeezes my hand.
Jensen:" i..i feel things for you too.."
My body went numb. I didnt know what to say or do.
Me:"..what..?"
Jensen:" i feel things for you too May.. ive tried not to.. ive tried to hide it.. ive tormented myself and hated myself... but i cant. I cant May.. i cant unfeel it.."
I felt tears rushing up to my eyes. I put my head up and look at him. We just make eye contact. As tears started running down my face i laugh. I had a million feelings bottled up that had just been released and all i could do was laugh. He smiled at me before laughing with me. We laugh our asses off and i lay my head back on his shoulder.