life vs love

Part 7 {Producing}

The whole day went like this. Running around, shooting, dancing, re-shooting and re-shooting again and again. Everyone was exhausted by the end of the day. They arrived at the dorm and Judy noticed that Yoongi wasn't with them.
"Where is Yoongi?" Judy asked.
"Oh, he went to his studio." Hobi said irritated.
"To his studio? After all this exhausting work?"
"Yeah, I tried stopping him but he wouldn't listen. He is always like that when he is producing."
"But he hasn't even eaten well all day."
"Don't say that to me."
"You fought with him or something?"
"Yeah, it's nothing really. Most of the time we fight beause of that. Because of his non-stop producing." Judy nodded she went to the kitchen and started packing food.
"Thanks for the food Jin. I'm heading to the entertainment."
"Why? Did something happen?" Jin asked worriedly.
"Nothing. I'm just bringing food to Yoongi." Jin nodded. Judy left the dorm with the food, her headphones and phone in her hands. She headed towards the entertainment. Walking at this time around Seoul never felt dangerous, she liked taking night walks when she wasn't too tired. Sometimes a member would tag along. She passed the security and headed towards Yoongi's studio. She knocked. No responce. She knocked again.
"Enter!" Yoongi's voice was heard. Judy entered and closed the door behind her.
"Hey Yoongs." Judy greeted. Yoongi finally turned around.
"Judy? What are you doing here? In this hour?" Yoongi asked shocked.
"Bringing you food." And as casually as that she sat at his couch and started taking out of her bag their food and putting it on the coffee table. "Since you are not eating at the dorm, and you haven't eaten well all day I brought it to you here. We'll eat together. So you'll have company while eating." Judy said and gave him a smile. Yoongi came closer with his chair. The rest of the members were pissed at him. And instead of just sitting back and watching, she had come with food. He was grateful for her gesture but he also felt guilty. No matter how safe Seoul was to walk around at night he still felt discomfort knowing she was walking alone at night bringing HIM food.
"Judy you didn't have to come all this way here. Espeacially for me. To bring me food. Really it wasn't necessary." Yoongi said and looked at the food.
"Yoongs I didn't cook this food I just did the delivery." Judy chuckled.
"Just don't do it again. It's not necessary. If I get hungry I'll order something." Yoongi said grabbing his chopsticks.
"I know. But I also know that we know each other well enough to know that it is not true that you will eat while working. You will forget about it. That's why I came." Judy said and grabbed her own.
"Thank you..." Yoongi never really said thank you to people he did not know well. He was the only member that he hadn't come so close with her. The rest of the members had gotten used to her and had actually become really good friends with her. It wasn't like he couldn't get used to her. There was nothing wrong with her. He just... kept his safety distance. They kept eating in comfortable silence.
"I know we haven't come close to each other... But Yoongs if you need help with music or anything I can help you if you want me to." Yoongs... even though they hadn't some close tto eeach other she had made a nickname for him too like she had done for the rest of the members.
"Thank you."

That continued for another week. When Yoongi was producing he disconected from the real world. He entered his own. And the members understood that about him, they just hoped he would change some of his bad habits that came along with his non-stop producing. The only time they got to see Yoongi was in dance practice or when he called a specific member to fix something in a song. Every day he would return very late at night around 3 or 4 am sometimes even 5am. And because all the members had a lot in their plate they couldn't always go to Yoongi's studio to bring him breakfast, lunch and dinner. So Judy offered. So every morning, noon and afternoon she went home and then back to the entertainment to bring food to Yoongi. It was around 11 o'clock. Judy had finished dance practice with Hobi. He had offered to bring food to Yoongi this time but Judy knew he was exhausted so she insisted for him not to do so. She packed food, took her headphones and her phone and headed to HYBE.
"Yoongs?" She asked. No answer. "Yoongs?" She knoked. No responce. "I'm entering Yoongs." She entered the studio. And what she saw, she wished for it to be just a hallucination. The studio was upside down. Papers, pillows they were all over the place, the chair was on the floor, the computers all turned off, the microphone "broken" in pieces and there was Yoongi. On the corner of his recording studio with a notebook on his hands but he wasn't writing anything on it. Just clinging to it. He was looking everywhere and nowhere at the same time. Judy threw her phone and headphones on the couch. She dropped the bag with the food and ran up to him.
"Yoongi!" Judy was almost frantic. She started picking him up to make him sit on the sofa. Yoongi suddenly focused his gaze on her. He wasn't taking his eyes off of her. 10 seconds ago before she was next to him his mind was racing. Now his mind went quiet. He sat down. Judy ran out of the studio to bring him a cup of water. She kneeled down in front of him, looking him in the eyes.
"What happened?" Judy finally asked after he drank his water.
"Nothing." He simply replied avoiding her gaze.
"Yoongi this scene is not nothing." Judy remarked.
"I know. It's nothing though. Don't worry about it." He acted like nothing serious had happened.
"Yoongi... this..." Judy pointed the messed up room. "This is not nothing. This looks like someone entered here and tried to steal. Or that you got in a fight with someone. So don't just sit here acting like nothing happened cause I am one step away from calling the police!" Yoongi looked at her. Even though they didn't know each other well, she cared a lot.
"I just got pissed..." Yoongi said shortly.
"You got upset at what?"
"Myself... My music... My own mind." He looked down, looking at his legs. Judy lifted his chin up.
"Yoongs it's okay. You are tired... You are exhausted. That's why your mind is not functioning. You barely even sleep! And what did I tell you? To ask me for help if you needed it. Heck if you didn't want to ask me for help you could have asked one of your members! They would be more than happy to help." Judy said. Yoongi just looked at her. He didn't say a word. "Let's eat. Then we'll go back to the dorm so you can sleep. You have no choice. This is not a request. You will sleep." And with that Judy threw everything that was on the cofee table on the floor and began to bring out of her bag the food. She gave Yoongi chopsticks and grabbed her own. They started eating in silencee. They never spoke when they were eating. Yoongi liked that he never felt like he was obligated to talk. If they spoke, they spoke about how their day was going. And that was the only discuassion they had. The only conversation they ever had was the next morning of the night Judy had firslty brought him food. Yoongi had told her he felt guilty for her because she was wasting her time bringing him food. And that conversation was replaying in Yoongi's head. She had reassured him that she did what she did because she wanted to. He felt guilty again.
"Don't you dare to feel guilty Min Yoongi." Judy warned him. Yoongi drifted his eyes from his food to Judy. He didn't say a word. They finished eating they packed the rest of the food into Judy's bag. She took her headphones, her phone and his keys. "Let's go." They left the studio together for the first time ever.

They entered the apartment. Everyone was either alseep or hadn't arrived home yet.
"Goodnight Judy..." Yoongi said.
"Goodnight Yoongs."
"-Sorry that you had to see this." Yoongi immediately said.
"There's nothing to feel sorry for Yoongs. Go to sleep." And with that Yoongi went to sleep. He did his night routine and went to sleep. He decided that he had to talk to Judy before going to sleep. So he went to her room. He knocked. No responce.
"Judy?" Yoongi asked and knocked again. Was she angry with him? "I'm entering Judy." He warned and entered the room. The room was empty. There was no one. "Judy?" He asked and walked out of the room. He headed to the living room. She wasn't there. He then went to the kitchen. She wasn't there either. He remembered Judy like to sit on the balcony and just look at the city. He went there but she wasnt sitting anywhere. A notification. He opened his phone. "No need to apologise. Go to sleep. I have something to work on. Goodnight Yoongs." Judy. She had guessed he would wanna say sorry again. He tried to smile to himself. Finally he went to sleep.