Vanilla ice

Chapter 12:

Sophia

Work today was hard, after the accident and being in the hospital off and on for a week, I'm sore. Today was my first day back to work and school. Thankfully, Vivian brought the school work that I miss to me in the hospital so I could work on it. I have practice tomorrow which means that exams are in one week. I miss owen. He hasn't stopped with the flowers and seeing them warms my chest. Yesterday he texted me asking to take me to lunch. I agreed, trying to put into practice what the therapist said, that I need to try and forgive him because it wasn't his fault for what happened. The boys have been talking about Owen non-stop since he came to the hospital and got them pancakes. Spencer doesn't say much but I can tell he likes him.

I've been trying to get out of my shell but it's been hard. Owen hasn't done anything to me but at the same time I feel like I'm not good enough for him. I'm going to see my father today, I'm hoping he isn't drunk like always.

I'm so worn out now I have to go into the school tomorrow to have a sit down with Spencer's principal. I still have to pick up some new skating shoes for Spencer. Maybe I will have time tomorrow because I definitely don't right now.

My phone starts ringing, I immediately answer.

"Hello?"

I can hear someone breathing on the other side of the line. Suddenly the line disconnects.

"That was weird." I whisper.

I check the time. It's 11:11. I don't usually believe in superstitions but Vivian convinced me to at least make a wish on 11:11. I wished for Owen to give me another chance, I know it's stupid but it's worth a shot right?

I haven't decided what I want to do after graduating but I have two years left until I have to make a decision. It's time to turn myself around. With all my assignments done for the rest of the year except for finals I've decided that for the rest of my time I'm going to work on setting up a college campus group. I already have a study group for struggling students.

I started going to this group at school for anxiety attacks. I still get anxious around men but it's better now. Miss Tracy, my therapist, gave me some exercises to use when I'm starting to get an attack. Miss Tracy helped me realize that I still love Owen and that my body was just in survival mode for a really long time. I'm hoping that this new group will help me come out of my shell.

After lunch with Owen he introduced me to his team mates to help me get comfortable with them. Miss Tracy helped me write a letter to Owen telling him why I cut him off. She convinced me to give it to him the next time I would see him. But I backed out. Instead I kept it in my therapy notebook that I gave to miss Tracy at the end of the week.

Back on topic of my new group I'm hoping to set up, I know it will be similar to all the other groups. But this one will be dedicated to finding your purpose in life. After searching for the school headmasters email, and shooting an email his way. I started drafting brochures for several different real life jobs. Starting with writing, being a doctor, photography, researcher, and psychiatry. Then I decided to call up my friend on the yearbook committee to help with the printing of everything.

Thankfully she agreed. Owen promised to keep the boys away for the day so that I can continue setting up everything for the open house. Flyers are in the making and I set up goodie bags for each individual job. Thanks to Vivian for the idea and emailing several businesses in the area. A lot of them loved the idea and were more than happy to donate different items.

In exactly two weeks time we will be holding the open house at the campus diner. Riverside diner offered to host the open house and give out baked goods and juices. The headmaster promised to announce the open house and have the teachers pass out flyers. In all of five hours I had planned on making a club for scared students to find their passion and it was all planned in a matter of days. Thanks to all of the support from my fellow classmates and teachers.

In three hours Owen will drop the boys off at the rink. After they get done with practice I will have to go pick them up. I will have to stay at home tonight with the boys and tomorrow morning they will get on the bus and go to school while I'm at work and at class. When the boys get home from school Vivian will be there to drive the boys to my work.