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Two reasons why

Taehyung's POV

We moved out of my father's mansion next month. I failed to keep the flashbacks from coming. Flashbacks of him yelling at Y/n , mistreating her in my absence. I had always had enough in that house and that act just gave me the push I needed to step out.  It wasn't solely just for her but also for myself.

I wanted to leave my past behind and move on. Maybe this way it could help . Things had started to fall in place.  The days were passing by swiftly and slowly a bond was forming between Y/n and me . Although I hadn't opened up to her yet, I felt the connection sparkling between us .

One night I found Y/n standing by the door of my study , looking at me expectantly. Her hands were joined together and as she anxiously gnawed on her lips , I could tell that she wasn't sure about whatever it was either.

“ Is there anything you wish to tell me ? " I looked at her and waited, shutting the file I was reading previously. She smiled , almost shyly and answered. “ I had an idea.  It's sort of a dream to me and I think I am ready for this…can I hold a personal art exhibition with the paintings I have made till now ? “ My eyes widened, a vivid imagery flashing across my eyes of a gallery having all of her magnificent artworks exhibited .

I couldn't help but nod my head , my heart pumping faster as I saw her smile.  I scrambled for the file and opened it , holding it in front of my face . Otherwise I would end up voicing out everything I was feeling, I feared. Y/n left after that , wishing me a gentle good night. I didn't sleep that night, staying up to look for different galleries which would suit the image I had in my head .

After the exhibition had turned out to be successful, my friends’ wives had made a plan to go out and have a celebratory dinner with Y/n on the success. Although I wasn't a fan of get togethers , I still agreed. The women had their own reservations sorted and I ended up with Jimin and Hoseok separately. I never figured out how I ended up being friends with such extroverted people when I myself was an introvert.

“ So our Taehyung is finally warming up to his wife . " Hoseok patted my shoulder rather aggressively while saying that . I just smiled , while moving his hands away . “ His way of showing affection is very romantic I would say . You could have left at least one painting out there for me to buy . " I quickly glanced at Jimin , a little surprised. He looked back at me with his sly expression.

“ How did you know? " I questioned. “ Heard you talking with your secretary to clear the payment of those paintings. " He shrugged , taking a sip of his whiskey. “ Trying to be anonymous and all huh ? " Hoseok added on and the others laughed. “ I just wanted to support her . " I blankly stated , drinking the whole content from my glass in one go . I kind of wanted to disappear as well…

“ Or you're just in love with your wife like every other husband . " They both said it unanimously. But I only caught onto that one particular word . Love . There was a strong urge in me to deny it and I did so . “ Love is nothing but a useless emotion . I'm not in love.“ The glass was still in my hold with my deadly grasp on it.  Even though the words escaped through my gape like a practised line , the drink tonight felt far more bitter than ever. 

“ Okay let's put it this way for our Taehyung ah who's in denial . " Jimin flayed his hand around my shoulder and pulled me closer . Hoseok joined the circle we had created. “How would you feel if another man approaches your wife and asks her out ? Holds her hand and kisses her knuckles? It shouldn't bother you if you don't love her right? "

It shouldn't bother and yet even the mere imagination made my heart burn and hands curl

“ But it seems as if you could cause a murder right now . " I was slowly let gone of their grasps and Hoseok whispered that in a sarcastic way and moved away from me to add on to his drama. I looked to the other side , a see through glass separating me from the table where Y/n sat . And then my eyes travelled to my own reflection. I held rage in my eyes , a look of malice and possessiveness .

Things didn't sit right with me after that . I didn't want to fall in love , I wouldn't allow that to happen after everything I had gone through and hence I decided to create a wall between us. I would avoid Y/n as much as I could , staying at work more than the working hours and returning late after past bedtime. We didn't have to stay in the same room at my penthouse but we still ended up together on the bed sometimes before. 

If the distance I forcefully created wasn't frustrating enough, I found her diary one night while I was checking on her after getting back from work . That casted a shadow over me which I failed to get rid of till the very end of our marriage. She seemed sad and exhausted lately, taking off her sorrow on the canvas placed beside the window . It was a snow flower , surviving even in the midst of a snow storm . Then my eyes trailed over to the opened diary beside her sleeping figure. I didn't intend to read the lines written on the page left open but I did and it left me perplexed as to what to do then and hopeless of myself at the same time.

“ Dear diary, I had a vision today . It must be my loneliness playing tricks with my mind but I saw it so vividly and it left me hoping for it . I had a vision of having a family with Taehyung. Me , him and our child . It was so selfish of my brain but now I cannot stop longing for it . What do I do ? “

How could I turn her hope into a reality when my own was crushed with the medical reports, years before ? How could I give her a child of our own when I was incapable of becoming a father ?

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