Art Of Hallucination

i cant see

"I'm what?"! I asked were perplexed look the doctor replied "you're three months pregnant, it's a miracle to it's alive with the state your legs are in, your bones are broken from waist below, I don't think you will ever be able to walk". I'm pregnant?With this monters child!.No,no,no,no,no!!.

  The doctor took his leave.
"Who did this to you?". "What?". "Who put the life of my child in danger?" So he cares about his child,but not me!?,Wait..this is the perfect chance to get rid of those maids!  "It was the head m_maid a_and some other maids, I don't quite remember their faces" He was furious,it was perfect, he gathered every servant in the estate and publically executed them. I felt pleasure for the first time in 6 months,as I saw the head maid pleading for he life at my feet.

  They all died. I had a wide grin on my face seeing each one of them being beheaded by the same person they hid behind, I was happy but , not.for.long.....

  All the servants were replaced,these new maids didn't treat me like the past ones, i got quite close to the current head maid, we do the house budget together she wheeled me around in my wheel chair,  we embroidered together and had tea often, she was my only light in this hellhole .

I was in my chambers thinking of sliting my wrist when the new butler came in and passed the message that the duke was in the garden waiting to have tea with me. I didn't want to go but I had to so he won't hurt me.....

  The butler wheeled me to the garden, Gill greeted me with a smile, he had been showing an affectionate side ever since he heard I was pregnant,  but I wasn't fooled ,this charade could end anytime at any moment.
"Lily, you look more beautiful today" I didn't reply. "Lily, I'm sorry for not taking more drastic measures sooner, if I had knew they'd been treating you that way I woul__"  "would what?, I told you before countless times but you never believed me, your apology changes nothing.." He changed the subject when I said that and started talking about something, but I was too focused on this monstrosity grow in inside of me to care.... What if I just use this butter knife to kill it, what if I..

*Whosh* a beautiful man walked past.. It was the gardener, I had heard the maids speaking of how good looking he is but never expected it to be like this, he had golden blond hair and emerald eyes.. Just like me..

*slam* " "How dare you gawk at another man"  ."I I wasn't I promise"  "ARE YOU CALLING ME A LIAR"   "N No I promise"  He got up and drew his sword and before my eyes he slashed him, the flowers where dyed crimson in his blood! "N No!"  He came over to me and said "you're mine and mine only, dont ever look in another man's direction!" . "I'm not yours and I will look at any man's direction I want!"  We'll see about about that.
     He pulled me by my neck out of my wheel chair and over to the table , he put me in  between his legs and held my face still while grabbing the butter knife and carving my left eye out ,it hurt ,it hurt like he'll. Out of his back pocket he got out a lighter and torched my right eye, "ahhhhh" I schreched. All the servants came running out all in shock staring at me,throwing up while seeing the blood leaking from my eye sockets. At that point I knew death was going to be my only escape, but how?.......