Art Of Hallucination

I can sense it

From that day,  I couldn't see , I was blind ,immobile and pregnant.
The useless family of this cursed body didn't even write a letter or visit once!, not even Anna my trusted maid, abandoned by everybody, I couldn't even see an opportunity for suicide, but at least I had dalia the head maid she keeps me busy by telling me stories of her old town.

Hearing these stories did make me jealous, I  can't remember how my past self looked like or how my mum or dad or family look like.

3 more months had already passed. All I wanted was to die, I couldn't even cry as my eyes are no more, I started hitting my stomach thinking of this and screaming ,thankfully the duke wasn't in so I was fine. I hit it and screamed, hit scream,hit, scream,hit ,scream the maids barged in hearing my screams seeing this they all tried to stop me , I finally stopped some hugged me and tried to console, but I didn't care because I was too focused on the wet feeling I had in my vagina.

"Blood!" One maid screamed, the maids where scurrying around , some led me to the bed ,some passed out, some ran out for a doctor. In the midst of it all I couldn't help but grin thinking , is it dead? A surge of happiness went through me, finally this thing isn't growing anymore, my happiness was short lived....

Doctors came rushing in , wet nurses even they all tried to help, the doctor lifted my legs and checked my vagina, a wet nurse put a wet cloth in my mouth, "I don't understand isn't it dead?" I schreched. "No madam,but you will have to deliver early!" No why , why can't you just. Die?. I cried not because of the Labour pains but because,  I have to bring this thing into the world.

No truly deep down in my heart I don't want a child to be born to this monsters family and go through the pain I'm going through.

But I had no time to sympathise , the duke heard of the news of me in labour and dropped all his work, I found out when a dalia whispered it in my ear, now I was scared what will he do to me if he found out what I had done to the baby?!.

I told dalia to shut all the maids and tell the doctor that I just had an early delivery which was normal.

*BANG* It was the duke he barged in while shoving the maids out of his way , took dalia 's position in holding my hand, I looked away from him. "Lily,please give birth safely and I'll give you whatever you want." I didn't reply,  I just focused on getting this thing out of me..

*nweeeeh*3 hours passed the baby was out, it was a boy, I was glad that it wasn't a girl, I don't want any child of mine enduring what I went through, the duke was in the room with the child , I could tell he loved him, I couldn't see but I could sense it