Art Of Hallucination

It was all a lie

On my way back to the mansion, I kept thinking of the what if that could have happened to me, that what if if my mother hadn't be so selfish ,what if the Marquis had cared about me ,what if my brother wasn't alive to inherit the Marquistate , what if this body wasn't  a girls what if,.. what if I hadn't been transmigrated here ..what if I succeeded in killing my self,...what if,I killed the duke?....

  I chuckled ,there was no way I could kill the duke, he is muscular and strong. I couldn't even kill a baby talkless of a man who isn't disabled like me. I felt a pang in my heart thinking of how fortunate I could have been if I had killed myself as soon as i got here ,it all hopeless thinking won't get me anywhere. I'll just have to wait until an assassin comes my way.

*knock knock* It was Anna , "come in,Anna ? Do you know where I can get lethal poison?" She was silent for a while, she came over to me and said it will a be fine.."No It will not!" I yelled. "It will my lady,i came bearing good news, the duke is leaving for war!" !"War?"  "Yes mylady" "where maguc beasts run rampant and strong men fight to kill?"  "Yes my lady."  "Where anyone could die?" "Yes my lady" I could feel something rolling down my face, it was blood, I knew it was blood,but u was happy I could cry even if it was blood..

Everyone in the mansion lined up outside to greet the duke farewell, I couldn't really hide my smile thinking that he might die, the duke came over and whispered in my ear "I'll be back" God I hope not! I looked away after he said that not even wishing him a safe return.

  My days from then where peacefully,no more throbbing holes ,no more unexpected disabilities.

Days turned into months and months turned into years,and years turned into 5 years.. the war hadn't shown any signs of slowing down,I could walk shut, but only for a few seconds, and the child's 5th birthday was here ,we organised a party for only the people in the estate.

  "Mummy!" He said ecstaticly "Child". "No silly its Trever", "oh yeah, forgive me my age is getting to me"

  *Anna will be narrating until further notice*

The duke had been at war for the past five years now Madams brain  wasn't the same as it was anymore, she started hallucinate  she started whispering things to trevors ears like: when you're old enough you will stab sword through your father's heart and then you will come to me and stabbed me as well she'd whisper words of hate to Trevor about his father I don't blame her though he was despicable man , but things like that shouldn't be said to a child.
    She hallucinates, she started to hallucinate the fact she could walk,it was very sad,the truth was she can't walk ever,becuase,her legs were cut off, at the balcony, by the duke.

  He knew that the maids didn't do it,but he still killed them, he knew she was hallucinating, he knew that she hated him, in fact he didn't make her blind,she isn't blind because of the duke, she is blind because she gouged her eyes out, when she saw the gardener being killed, he wasn't killed,he never died,he wasn't even the gardener,.

He was her.....