It started out with a kiss

Chapter 17- before disaster

A/N- Okay so basically really quick, I'm trying to create some sort of schedule for when i write because I've been in school for a week and I've already got homework that is apparently due in like two days so i need to get that done. Also We are getting some new perspectives in today's chapter so have fun. also i was going to do this chapter with some smut in it but i think it needs to not be so like romantic and like all of them vibes do you know what i mean because that's not the vibe I'm trying to go for i want it to be more like i don't even know how to explain but yeah. 

TW- R0G3R, SLIGHT MENTIONS OF ABUSE.

SIOBHAN

As I sat in the front seat of the car on our way to the nursery, my whole body was tense and sore from the numerous amount of bruises and cuts Roger had given me before we left. When I had asked why we had to go to the nursery is when Roger decided to beat me again, said it was because I needed to learn to keep out of his business and stop being so nosey, I really should have learnt my lesson by now, but in all fairness with man like Roger the rules change every so often so you really never know what your going to do wrong that day. However we pulled up to an empty car park as to be expected, although I knew nobody was there I couldn't help but sense an eerie feeling, like something bad was going to happen, yet again that would probably be another beating from Roger once we got home and he decided what i did wrong, what mistake i made, when he asked me why i was so stupid all the time.

We stepped out into the cold air, Roger tightly grabbing my wrist as we got round to the front side of the car, it felt odd for to feel him being even the tiniest bit aggressive in public, he couldn't do it normally because ' he had a reputation to uphold ' , personally i just think he doesn't want everyone to see who he truly is because if they do he might just lose everything. He was a business man in public, and a complete and utter monster at home.

One question I wish somebody would ask me is MAN or BEAR. It would give me the opportunity to talk about how men are vile creatures, it would be a way for me to talk about everything that's going on without making it seem like it was happening to me, nobody would talk to me though anyway, nobody likes Siobhan Serpent.

He opened the front door, not giving me time to catch up making me almost fall over in the process, he just kept on dragging me turning back and giving me a death stare as he did. He took me towards the baby room where there was a few unlit candles laid out.

" Right woman you wait here, I'm going to get some blankets out of the boot of the car, if you want you can light some of the candles, that's if you want to make yourself useful." he threw me a lighter and left the room. I sighed trying to keep quiet, I know he was walking away and probably wouldn't be able to hear me but if he heard the slightest noise come out of my mouth when i wasn't getting talked to I would have been in for a world of pain, a pain so hard to explain that when one wants to talk about it they just can't, a relationship like mine could only be described as an endless cycle of pain, terror and uncertainty. The painful memories of every time he ever laid his hands on me, the terror of what he was doing and the terror of questioning if i was going to make it out this time or if i had another chance, and the uncertainty of what's goin to happen next;

IS HE GOING TO KILL ME TODAY?

DO I GET UNTIL TOMMOROW?

WHY ME?

JUST WHY?

I hear the faint opening and closing of doors in the distance and so I quickly decide to start going around and lighting all the candles before Roger would have time to make his way back into the room. Thank god I did because he already seemed angry enough and I didn't want this to be another reason I get hit again when we arrive home.

He walked back through the door as i had lit the last candle, I stood up to face him just holding the lighter out so he could take it back from me, i knew he had brought alcohol with him and i also knew that he would want to have cigar before he drove us home later on, whenever he decided that would be.

As we had finished setting everything up, we looked at each other and he smiled, i smiled back as he reached his hand out for me to hold. He pulled me in and gently placed a light kiss on my lips, and for a second everything seemed fine, i had forgotten about the marks he had left all up my arms and legs. Everything was how it used to be.

We layed down on the blanket as Roger invited me in to his arms.

Why couldn't it be like this all the time?

He leaned down and kissed me again and from there we took the night further.

AUTUMN

It had been a while since me and Winter had some alone time and we just wanted to go somewhere peaceful, the quietest place we could think of was the nursery. We were driving around late at night when we came up with the idea to go over there. 

We arrived around 5 minutes after we decided it but we went in through the back entrance to try and keep hidden from any of the cameras around the front. We got inside using my key and made our way to the preschool room, it was the closest one to the back entrance and also the biggest room in the nursery so we knew we would have a lot of space for certain things if you know what i mean.

The night went on an on but obviously we had to leave eventually so as we got ready to leave that's when i noticed it. 

SIOBHAN

While Roger and I were carried away having probably the best night we'll ever have, which sounds weird to say that I'm having a good night with him but that's beside the point, we may have had a little accident and before we knew it the room was beginning to become engulfed it flames, getting swallowed by the heat comforted me in a way, made me wonder if i should stay and end this repetitive cycle with him. I wouldn't have been allowed me to stay, he dragged me out before he got onto the phone with 999.

AUTUMN

I don't even know how it started but as i ran towards the room to look inside i noticed the blanket on the floor.

My Father.

I ran in there to grab it before anyone else saw and I dragged myself and Winter back out of the door and as we pulled out secretly I could see emergency services and the staff all beginning to surround themselves at the front of the nursery. 

A/N- If your reading this then i hope you are enjoying my story so far, there is obviously going to be more parts surrounding this so just stay tuned for them. Also i apologize that Siobhan has a lot more written than Autumn i just felt it was needed to get some Shibby background stuff in there as she does get more involved later on, and i want practice because I've decided that my next story is going to be Shivian, I've wanted to do it since the beginning of them so I've put it off until now because I've decided that where I've got to now in my drafts is going to be the end of this story so that's already been determined. 

Until the end of this story you've got roughly 40 ish parts but i might at more at the end before i do finish it all depends on how long it takes me to write it all as i want to start a new story for the new year which will be shivian so if i finish this one before new years them i will be adding parts but if not them the end is the end. 

just thought i would let you all know 

- M x