I Prefer Her (Korrasami)

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Sorry I killed you off mako😛

POV:Asami

I listened to Korra and Bolins conversation as my heart sank. I wasn't sure how to feel like I mean he was a boyfriend but he was a bad person then but he said he changed. It's been years since I've seen him.

How am I supposed to feel do I act as if I don't care? I mean he hurt my girlfriend then, and me.

I do care. But- I'm so confused on how to feel right now.

"Sami? Baby?" Korra said looking at me concerned as if she had been speaking to me for a minute and I hadn't listened.

I wanted to cry not because of his death but because I didn't know how to feel and I feel guilt for caring to much but guilty for not caring enough, if that makes sense.

My eyes water as I quickly wiped them not wanting to mess my makeup up.

"Hey..are you ok..?" Korra held my hands as her eyes filled with worry.

"Yeah..I'm just-We'll talk later about it we should get back over there our sons out of our vision." I said putting on a fake smile that was hard to hold.

I pulled my hands away gently walking back.
"Took you guys long enough! They keep breathing all over him!" Opal said

Her face expression changed realized how My mood and Korras both changed.

"I think we are gonna head home Asami isn't feeling well." korra said as bolin looked over with concern knowing why.

"Oh ok well I hope you feel better..!" Opal said putting Kiji back in his Car seats buckling him in as a picked him up.

"Yeah I hope you feel better" Jinora said clearly seeing that something else was wrong. "Bye. Love you guys!" Everybody else said.

"Love you to!" I told them and so did Korra as we left driving back to the hotel the ride was very quiet.

We there as we got into our room I plopped down on the bed as a bunch of thoughts was going through my mind as Korra set Kiji down in his bassinet as he slept.

She sat down next to me looking at me. "So how do you feel.." she asked.

"Idk.." I said as I felt the tears rushing back to me as a fought to hold them in.I dated him for 3 years.

"What if I never dated him or we never told Bolin or Opal about what he did to us do you think he would still be here.. that bolin would have continued talking to him and he wouldn't have went to the army?" I asked her my voice slightly shaky feeling as if I had something to do with it.." I asked looking at the floor.

"Asami it's not your or my fault I'm sure he would have gone to the army anyway even so it's no point to blame yourself he's gone.but its ok to feel sad that he died.."she said holding my hand running her thumb across it.

"He hurt you though, and me. He lied and cheated a litterally beat you up." I said as I couldn't control a few tears from escaping my eyes.

"He was also a teenager who was insecure but had a big ego. Who changed his life around completely as he became an adult he had a wife and a daughter who he wants us to meet." She said

"So yes even though he did that don't feel guilty for caring your human its ok to cry about it." She said giving my hand a squeeze.

I couldn't control my emotions anymore as I hugged her crying into her shoulder.

I messed up my makeup.

~A bit later after I cried~

We just laid in the bed quietly as Kiji slept then Korra took a deep breath before speaking.