There's no mercy when I f*ck you pretty one. Dominance is what I CRAVE the most."
Synopsis :
A tragic love story of a boy who fell in love with a wrong one who tainted his mind with his own cunning lust that was carried forward by the tough male...
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To, Mrs. Y/n Jeon,
My Dearest Love,
As I sit here, pen in hand, I find myself overwhelmed with the emotions and memories that have shaped the man I am today. I have decided to bare my soul to you, hoping that you will understand the depths of my love and the burdens I have carried. This is my story, a story that I have never fully shared with anyone, not even you, until now.
My journey began in an orphanage where my innocence was shattered by a boy named Josh. His cruelty knew no bounds, and I was a helpless sixteen-year-old, unable to defend myself. The pain and humiliation were compounded when Madame Jane, a figure of authority and supposed care, joined in the torment. The scars from those days have never truly healed, but they have taught me the harsh realities of life.
Amidst the darkness, there was a flicker of light in the form of a blind girl named Sapphire. She was my solace, my refuge. I believed that she was my rebound, a fleeting comfort in a world filled with pain. But as fate would have it, our bond grew deeper, and our love blossomed in the most unexpected way. Sapphire was pregnant with our child, and I was filled with hope for a future we could build together. But our happiness was tragically cut short. My enemies, driven by their own hatred, took away the most precious thing in my life. I still remember the harrowing day when they killed her, mercilessly ending the life of my unborn child as well. The sight of Sapphire, in the throes of her final moments, remains etched in my memory-a haunting image that I cannot escape.
In the wake of that atrocity, I was consumed by a rage that was both unfamiliar and all-encompassing. The need for vengeance became my sole focus. I hunted down Madame Jane and ended her life, an act that, while a step towards justice, only deepened my descent into darkness. My actions did not go unnoticed, and I was sent to a rehabilitation center where I spent months grappling with my inner demons and the consequences of my choices.
It was during this time of isolation and reflection that I encountered the assassin responsible for Sapphire's death. The moment I confronted him, something inside me snapped. The rage I felt was not just about retribution; it was about the profound sense of loss and injustice that had been festering within me. I ended his life and, in that moment, my fury seemed to consume all rational thought. The result was a violent spree that claimed the lives of five of his associates, marking a turning point in my life.
Emerging from the chaos, I found myself at the helm of an underworld empire. The power I accumulated became a means of both survival and dominance in Busan, a city where fear and respect are currencies of their own. Despite the power and control, I remained haunted by the ghosts of my past.
It was in this world of shadows that I first laid eyes on you. From the moment I saw you, I was captivated. Your presence was a beacon of light amidst my darkness. Falling in love with you was both a salvation and a complication. You brought a warmth and kindness into my life that I had long thought was beyond my reach. Our time together was precious and filled with moments of joy that I will always cherish.
I remember the days when we were preparing for our new life in the U.K. The memories of our time together, especially those intimate moments we shared, are among the few that bring me solace. The love we made was more than just physical; it was an expression of the deep connection we had forged despite everything I had been through.
Now, as I write this letter, I am faced with the reality that I am nearing the end of my journey. There's just this sour feeling that says I don't have time to sit with you and pour my heart out, to confess and apologise to you. I did not want to burden you with my illness, but I could not leave this world without expressing my deepest regrets and apologies. The sins I have committed, the lives I have taken, and the pain I have caused weigh heavily on my conscience.
I am profoundly sorry for the way my past and my actions have impacted you. You deserved so much more than the tumultuous life I offered you. I ask for your forgiveness, not to absolve myself but to find some semblance of peace. You have been my greatest gift, and I am deeply grateful for every moment we shared.
Please remember me not just for the darkness that surrounds my story but for the love that I have always felt for you. I can only hope that you find happiness and fulfillment in the life that lies ahead of you. I will carry the memory of you with me, a beacon of light in the shadowed corridors of my mind.
Farewell, my love. Though we may never meet again in this life, I will always cherish the time we had together. You have been my solace, my joy, and my greatest regret. You weren't just my love or my obsession, Y/n you were the only one I CRAVE!
With all my love,
Jungkook
I shut my eyes and there I could see his vibrant face. It wasn't even love. I tried so hard to love him but it wasn't possible after all the abuse he put me through. My heart was already shut for him. As I remembered the time I spent with him, tears rolled down my eyes. As I read the letter left by my late husband I felt guilty for the very first time in years. He was a troubled man who was searching for a happy family and yearning to experience a normal life for once. Now that I could see his charming smile in my mind, I didn't know how to react. I want to slap him and kick him and bang his head on the wall but now that he is gone how am I supposed to do it? I knew it would be hard to erase him from my life and now that Taeho resembles his late father makes it difficult to even forget you, Jeon Jungkook. I was vulnerable as always but how many days or years should I hold onto him. He left us a long time ago, so I shot him with my own hands. I should be content since he paid for his sins yet I'm unhappy and he is still lingering around me. I don't know what was the purpose of this letter but I do understand it's time I let go of him and shut this bitter-sweet chapter completely.
"I know you're long gone Jungkook but why can't I let you go. It's so tough to forget you when you left your soul in our son. I'll make your dream of a happy family and normal life come true. I'll make our son a good man, Jungkook. I promise you that. I still despise you for whatever you put me through but there was a wonderful outcome that came from this misery, our Taeho. Our son is the sunshine that keeps me glowing and growing. I want to be a better mother to him. Honestly Jungkook I forgive you for all the bad things you did to me but I hold a strong grudge against you. Why didn't you fulfill your dream of having a happy family? How can you betray me and vanish from this world so easily? It's so difficult to survive knowing that your dream never came through. The fact that you never got a chance to show me your good side and lead a happy family shattered me but I think this was my destiny. It's a bit spur but I'm glad we met. I hope you rest in peace and if possible for being so selfish and cunning to take your life. Farewell to you too Mr. Jeon Jungkook."
I smile as I remember how every girl used to turn around to check out Jungkook whenever we both went out. It was a distant memory but a fond one. As I gaze upon the sparkling stars tears welled up blurring my eyes. I lowered my gaze and it stuck on the small piece of paper left by my former husband, his only memory I could cherish for the rest of my life but something in me retaliated and I folded the letter keeping it nicely in the envelope. I placed a kiss on it, as if I was kissing his forehead, the mark of my red lipstick pasted over it. Soon I took the lighter and set the letter on fire. I watched it burn and it turned into ashes which faded away with the chilly winter wind. Perhaps this was my way of shutting this chapter and discarding all the traces that could remind me about him. He was an amazing father but as a man he was monstrous and cruel.
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