Escape | Updated Weekly

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I lay in bed, scrolling through my phone trying to sleep when he texted me. 

Mac: Hey.. you awake?

Me: Yeah 

Mac: I can't stop thinking about you

I hated how he could say the most simple things and yet it would take such a big effect on me. After mine and Chloe's chat I had hidden away upstairs. I knew she'd be watching me and Mac under a microscope now that she knew everything, but now everyone had gone to bed and once again Mac and I were the only ones awake.

Mac: Should we talk about it?

Me: Talk about what?

Mac: What happened the other night.

Ahh. The long awaited but very much needed conversation. I had been dreading it. So many good things had happened. Talking about it now could ruin it all so quickly after it had started. 

Me: Yeah. We probably should.

Mac: Everything feels better when I'm with you. It's confusing

Me: Why is it confusing?

Mac: I've never felt that way. 

Me: Do you wanna come up?

A few minutes later he was quietly walking the stairs to my room. When he reached the top he stood awkwardly, looking at me in the bed. I pulled the duvet back, he took the invitation and joined me. He instantly put his arms round me, pulling me into an embrace. "I don't want to stop seeing you" he whispered against my hair, I could feel his breath as he spoke. 

"I can't do anything that's gonna hurt Tom". I felt Mac slightly nod. It was a tricky situation for us both. It could change so much. Mine and Tom's long lasting friendship and then there was the band. 

"We don't have to rush it" Mac said he squeezed me tighter, it felt like he was saying he never wanted to let go. "How do you suggest we do that?" I joked. He bent his downward now so that his was pressing against mine. "No one else needs to know. It can be just us until we say so". I did like the idea of not having to involve anyone in it. The chance for us to figure out what the hell was going on without other people getting in the way or putting their opinions into it.

But then that made me think of Chloe, she already knew everything and would definitely have her opinions about it, she already tried putting me off the idea. Which is how I knew it would probably be for the best to keep our little secret. Then if it didn't work no one would ever have to know. I could even tell Chloe we already called it off and then she wouldn't know either.

"That might not be a bad idea". I could just about see him smile. 

We stayed up for ages just talking, like we used to before all of this happened. No sex or kissing, just talking. Only this time we were in bed and I was laying on his chest whilst he played with my hair. I couldn't help thinking how easy it was to lay this way with him, that we kind of just fitted together.  Eventually I fell asleep in his arms. I don't know when he left, but when I woke up I was alone, and a note was left in his place.

'Just us x'