"My perfect rock bottom
My beautiful trauma
My love, my love, my drug".
What happens when you've given up your whole life for a man you thought would be your forever just for you to end up getting a divorce and creating a new life with a new man ? B...
I lay down in the guest room listening to forever by zendaya and labrinth
Suddenly it's a dip in the bed I lean up and I see Josh
" what are you doing in here " I ask "What you think Cali " he ask pulling me closer to him "
" stop" I finally muster up the courage to tell him that word for the first time ever
Smacking his lips he lets me go " why are you here Cali "
" I needed some place to go your house was the last option "
" yea your dad told me what happened yesterday.. you fucking that guy? " Josh ask
I look down at him " why whats it to you " I ask with a attitude
Josh beginning laughing and unbuckling his pants and zipper " you know Cali I think you need a little encouragement on how to watch your mouth when talking to me hmmm " with that he places his hand over my mouth turns me to My side rips my underwear off and starts taking the one special thing I had left in me as I cry and scream into his hand
The next day... " get up it's time to go home " Josh says coming into the guest room " noooooo leave me alone " I say flipping over in bed " does your mom and dad know where you are " Josh ask me opening the curtains " does Milan know you have a secret house in LA ?" I ask smartly " you know now I see why everyone hates your bratty ass it's because of your smart ass mouth " Josh says I finally sit up in bed with dried smeared mascara running down my face from crying my eyes out last night "FUCK YOU " I push the covers off of me and grab my things running out of the house I pull my phone out trying to call west
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"Hello ?" "Mmm west " some girl moans and I hear skin clapping my heart drops "Oh shit ! CALI CALI ITS NOT WHAT YOU THINK " I hang up and call a car service I walk into my dads house him and my mom waiting on the stair looking relieved that I walk through the door.
"Cali where have you been " my mom ask "Not today Vanessa GET THE FUCK OUT OF MY WAY " and I push past her to go up the stairs. My dad grabs my arm " let me go NOW Nick"
My dad slaps me in my mouth causing me to scream and begin crying "FIRST OF ALL IM YOUR FATHER AND YOU WILL RESPECT ME YOU WONT TALK TO ME LIKE YOU DO EVERBODY ELSE BECAUSE ILL BEAT YA ASS WITH A BELT SINCE YOU THINK YOU A GROWN ASS WOMAN BECAUSE YOUR STARTING TO FUCK GROWN MEN DONT FUCKING TEST ME CALIFORNIA.. AND SECOND DONT EVER CALL ME OR YOUR MOTHER BY OUR DAMN NAMES AS IF YOU HAVE LOST YOUR FUCKING MIND . HER NAME IS MOMMY TO YOUR UNGRATEFUL ASS !
Holding my mouth " I HATE YOU !! I fucking hate the both of you !! And I run up the stairs I lock myself in my room ..
A few hours later..
"Cali open the door " I hear my dad say "I get up and open the door" he walks in closes it and take a seat on the floor next to me he doesn't say anything but wraps his arms around me and I lean my head into his chest
" what's going on Cali this is not you " I don't answer I just a silently cry
" you wanna know why I was so upset catching west in here like that with you the other day .. because what he was doing was the first step of sex, maybe I'm old fashioned but it's called making love ..that means you do it with someone you love and preferably when your married so when your ready you can take that love and turn it into a baby , because that's what love is ! Its that first moment when you hold your baby girl and you didn't know that anything could be so small and so delicate and you feel that tiny heart beat and you know you couldn't love anything more in the whole world .And you hope you could do right by that little girl forever and always be there to catch her when she falls and that nothing ever hurts her not a broken arm or a bad dream ...or a broken heart " my dad says rubbing my back
I break down into his chest sobbing " what do you want ?? Just go away " I try sitting up but he doesn't let me loose
"Hey hey no just tell me what's wrong "my dad looks at me
" west is cheating on me "
"West is cheating on you what?? What happened? " "what did he do .. What did he do ?" My dad asked in a questioning manner then in a serious tone .
To busy crying to answer him
"You know when your young everything feels like the end of the world it's not it's just the beginning you might have to meet a few more aint shit niggas but one day your gonna meet a boy that treats you the way you deserve to be treated .. the sun rises and sets with you Cali " my dad says while staring at me
"After going shopping yesterday we went to his house and were talking and he brought up something I confided in him about "
Nick continued looking down at his fragile baby girl
" dad when I was 15 something happened.. "
" Whatt cali" " mom should be here for this " "VANESSAA" my dad calls out My mom walks into the room and sits with me confused " whats going on guys? "
"When I was 15 and would stay with Milan and Josh one summer me and Josh got close to each other and sexual things happened between us "
" WHAT THE FUCK " both of my parents say
"What did he do to you " they both ask
"He would give me oral , kiss me and use his fingers to penetrate me and last night he took my virginity away " I said climbing into my dads laps crying even more and trying to feel safe and protected again
My mom starts throwing up and crying and while lying on my dad I feel his heart start racing
"ARIANAAA" my dad calls out " yes babe "
" call Josh and Milan invite them over " my dad responds "alright "
Kissing my forehead my dad says " his ass is done Cali I promise you that "
