Axel's Daisy

49 • Axel

I got hit by a train. In my mind. Through my contemplations.

  You fucked this up, Axel. My intuition laughed at me.

  I pulled my hair after the boxing session was over, it was grimy and didn't help me forget her one bit. I was infuriated when it ridiculed me into remembering my smiling Daisy in front of Sleazy West. She didn't smile at any male other than me.

  It angered me when I mulled over how we broke up. How we were both trying to fight through currents of we can try again and maybe not — we were crazily in love with each other. Time difference didn't matter for us, she had her work going on and I would see her through weekends if I went there.

The needed fire of hope inflamed me and burned my skin with fear. The fear of losing her to someone as sickheaded as West. From the things I heard and saw about him from his former band mate, Kevin Hudgens, he used to cage the women and assault them. I didn't tell Destiny that because I had another fear that she wouldn't believe me and Kevin couldn't give me the proof.

  I treaded on thin waters when I walked faster to reach the place she was in. In her perfect little world, she stood with pain-filled eyes and a fake radiant smile. The ones I only witnessed from the see-through glass. My fists were in my pockets and my wet hair dripped on my forehead.

  Risking hypothermia for the girl I loved was worth it. I had been at fault to leave someone that prioritized me and made me feel like I was a special person on this planet.

  Admit it, you weren't going to board that plane. My mind tugged at me and I allowed it to. I deserved it as my hands shook when she cut the cake and stepped down. 

  It was like my body and my mind were fighting me, my hand on the glass pushed itself to open the gate and get in.

"It was him, the one who broke into the meeting." I recognized the lady as she pointed at me with a drunk smile. The others laughed with her and I ignored him when my eyes met hers.

"What are you doing here?" Jade interjected, eyebrows furrowed and a scowl on her heart shaped face.

"I want to talk to Destiny." I told her, adamant to get my redhead out of here. Away from West.

"No, she doesn't want to talk to you." She glowered at me but a hand stopped her.

"It's okay, I will talk to him." Destiny decided, her honeycomb eyes staring through my soul.

  "I'll be around," she walked away, but not before she said, "I'm watching you." She pointed at her eyes before she striked me with her fingers. I wasn't in her good graces anymore, but I was somewhat glad that Destiny had her as a bestfriend.

  I took off my jacket, it was oversized from Cole's uncle, the old man thought I would go down with the cold badly. Little did he know that I was already frozen on the inside.

Destiny took the jacket and wore it when we walked outside. I stuck up the middle finger at West, who watched us as if he would snap his jaw any moment, a few people gasped at the instant reaction, but what mattered to me was that she didn't see it.

  "So, you changed your decision to go to Oregon?" She started, her eyes looked at me beneath those long lashes and I momentarily forgot what I was about to tell her.

  "No." I said.

  "Then nothing changed."

  "Do you want it to?" I asked, I tilted my head at the girl that got swallowed by the jacket.

  "Yes. I do," She answered loudly, "I don't want to do long distance if we are going to try again."

  I couldn't hide my smile anymore, which made her smile too as we ended up laughing our crazy asses off. I threw her on my shoulder and walked on the empty street that had her squeals and giggles.

  That was it. Our relationship was batshit crazy and I liked it this way.

•••

She was back in my arms, where she belonged. I kissed her forehead when she snuggled into me and I got a whiff of her heavenly scent. I gave her my shirt that went to her knees and we just laid down to talk.

Her smile was enticing, like it was made only for me. I stroked her hair and each blink turned me into a completely different person, I wanted to be better for her. She made me a happy guy who learned that love could be a solution for everything.

"What are you going to do about the chance in Oregon?" She asked, our faces inches apart on our pillow.

I touched her nose with the tip of mine, giving her a light kiss on her lips.

"Fuck it, I talked to our coach to cancel it."

"I'm happy to hear that. I mean I always wish you the best, it's your choice in the end, but I don't want us to be apart." She confessed, her eyes clouded with her thoughts, so I gave her another kiss to snap out of it and it did the trick as she giggled against my lips.

"I'll always be with you, till the ends of the earth." I made her blush as my lips trailed to her cheeks up to her eyes.

"Can't say that I won't do that too." She retorted and I chuckled when I wrapped my arms around her. Her body snug against mine in an eternal promise of warmth.

I wouldn't want to lose her again. I made that mistake once, I would never make it twice.

We slept to the sounds of our heartbeats and our tangled bodies, our lips breathed from each other.