Just Dust N' Bones, Baby

The Wicked Witch of the West

          'I love my life. All my friends always say stupid bitchy shit like, "Erin you're so full of it," or "You really live in your own world don't you?" Of course I do, it's my life after all, it's not like I'm living somebody else's, of course it's my world! Whatever, they're just jealous whores. 

They wish their lives were as perfect as mine. Who wouldn't! I have everything anybody could ever want! I have flawless looks, my daddy's credit cars, I've got a new car, luxury apartment, I go shopping every day, and I have the most perfect boyfriend! Every perfect woman needs a gorgeous rockstar boyfriend, the lead singer in his own rock band too! He's like, the most important one! 

It doesn't matter that rock stinks and their band just sounds like noise, just look at the way he moves on stage! I just wish he'd play some Bryan Adams. I think if I asked him he totally would, he'd do anything for me. It's his dumb band that might put up a fight, they just wanna play loud music and drink beer, do drugs, and have sex. 

They really are a bad influence on Axl. I don't like him hanging around them, they're dangerous, and he's my good boy, they could drug him or worse! Then anything could happen, he could cheat on me with other women, or worse, with men! 

If he was a cheater that's one thing, but a faggot? I'd prefer he sleep with other women than look at a man the way he looks at me. 

It's a good thing he's as straight as a board, he's a womanizer, he would never soberly be a homosexual. 

It's his bandmates I have my doubts of, they'd fuck anything, I don't know what they could do to him if they drugged him up! Especially Slash, and now that I know he's a fag. He's always drunk and high, he could rape Axl if he's not careful. It's a good thing he has such a good girlfriend like me. Where would he be without me. 

I just need to keep a closer eye on him, make sure they aren't influencing him. He loves being around me, he loves me and I love him, I really do just need to be around him constantly. I wish I could more, but his bandmates apparently have some unexplainable problems with me, that's what he always says when I call. "Duff's sick n' I needa help him," "Izzy doesn't want company over," "We're going out for drinks, Slash says it should be just the band." 

I know he's just trying to be polite, he's far too loyal to those sick fucks, he doesn't want to say it right to me 'cause he's too nice but I know his bandmates really just don't like me. I can't see why, I'm a delight to be around! 

I guess they're all just jealous of the attention I get from Axl. They don't like me taking him from them, they all thrive off his attention like puppies. Could you believe how dependent they are on him? It's like they wouldn't survive without his attention, they need it so much they don't even realize how little he cares about them! 

He really only cares about me, every time I come over he's always sitting with the guys and I can just tell immediately when I walk through the door how he just feels so down. So I sit next to him and try to give him as much attention as I can to make him feel better and distract him from it, but his mood just looks lower. He always looks so trapped when I come over, poor thing, so desperate to get away from those junkies so he can be with me. 

I always feel so bad when I leave, but he usually hints around or the guys I can tell are trying to get me out, they just don't want to shoo me away directly. 

Poor thing. 

Every time I see him he just looks so down and frustrated, he might have some kind of disease like anxiety or something from them. I should get him on meds. I don't want to have a depressed boyfriend, that's no fun. 

He doesn't want to do anything anymore, he doesn't take me for date nights or for drinks, we hardly even have sex which he used to love, all it used to be was sex sex sex to the point I hardly knew anything else about him, and now he hardly holds my hand! I'm telling you its those bandmates, he doesn't want to be affectionate with me when he's around them, it'd just make them jealous of all the attention he gives me.