On Your Way ✓

Chapter 3.

3rd person POV:

Even though he felt drained, Taehyung served himself the food so seonghee's cooking doesn't go to waste. He didn't feel hungry but he was feeling dizzy, maybe it was the lack of the food or the fact he cried so much that his head wouldn't stop hurting he didn't know.

Once he was done, he went to sit on the dining table, food placed before him as he tried taking a bite from him but he could only clutch the chopstick in his hand tightly as he did so. She had made makguksu today and he could feel himself choking up once again as he took another bite and suddenly, there were tears in his eyes once again which he wiped immediately.

"What's fucking wrong with me today." He let out shakily, in a whisper as he took another bite but couldn't anymore as he put the chopstick down and ran hands over his face.

"Why why why why why. Just why. Why me. Why can't I just be normal for fucks sake." He tried not to yell in frustration as his body shook once again as he sobbed into his hands. He couldn't even care about his wife hearing him anymore when all he wanted to do was to run away, run away from this marriage, from his life, from himself, from everything.

"Why m-me.." he let out brokenly as he wailed like a child in his hands. His eyes closed and he had to fight the urge to scream when all he could see behind them was a pair of eyes filled with tears as they looked up at him with indescribable pain.

He could only pull his hair in frustration as he tried to think of anything else but those eyes. It wasn't working and he could only rest his head against the table.

Taehyung was way too out of it as he drowned in his own pain and memories to notice the sound of footsteps. He didn't even have the energy to wipe his uncontrollable tears when he felt a soft pair of hands pulling his own hands away from his hair as they patted the hair down where it hurt.

Next thing he knew was, he was pulled upto his feet and he was expecting a slap to his face or worse being kicked out of the house as he stared into seonghee's eyes but instead he felt a pair of arms wrapped around his middle as she pulled him in a silent hug and rubbed his back.

"Do you want about it?" She asked in a whisper but taehyung shook his head and whispered, "I'm s-sorry for being the worst huh..husband ever. You don't deserve this."

"Do you have someone else in your life?" Was all she asked while still continuing to rub his back, taehyung's cries turning into sniffles and soon he wasn't crying anymore.

Taehyung chuckled bitterly as he pulled away from the hug and sat back down, her sitting infront of him as she gently held his hand and the man couldn't help but feel more and more disgusted in himself.

"No I don't. Why haven't you filed for a divorce yet, seonghee? Why are you comforting me right now when you should have slapped me in the face for mistreating you for years now?" Taehyung wiped his face with the sleeve of his shirt as he looked down on the table, unable to look into the eyes of the woman knowing they too, were filled with tears now. And the reason was him.

Do i even deserve to cry after all the people I've hurt.

"Because I can see you're hurting. And I've loved you for too long to just let you go like that without knowing what went wrong with us." She asked with a bitter smile even though taehyung wasn't looking at her, as always.

"It was never right to begin with. I never deserved you from day 1, I've never deserved anyone at all. I just lived in the pretense that I could love you, I could make this right, i could.. live a normal life but I was wrong. I've always been miserable, and I'm just dragging you down with me." Taehyung finally looked up at her as he said those words and the woman had no expressions he could read whatsoever.

"Can you atleast tell me why do you think that? Why are you hurting like that, taehyung? Why are you giving us pain? Where did it go wrong?" She asked what she had been meaning to ask for so long and taehyung again looked back down in his lap as he shook his head.

"I'm sorry."

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