On Your Way ✓

Chapter 12.

3rd person POV:

Trigger warning (very brief)

"I feel a little gross I'll go and take a shower." Taehyung could finally get up, he didn't wait for any of the two to say something. He picked up his dishes and washed them first before leaving them alone there.

He took his time with it, they didn't need to know the way he had a panic attack there, they didn't need to know the way he struggled to breath after talking about all that and they definitely didn't need to know the way he scratched his skin till it was on the verge of bleeding just so he could feel something. He hated feeling numb.

Soon he stepped out of the shower after changing into the first pair of clothes he found and went back to the living area where the two were sitting in the same place where they had been when he left.

Jungkook seemed to be crying, with a hand covering his mouth and seonghee seemed to be on the verge of it but mostly she looked angry which was rare, because the woman never got angry. Everytime taehyung would acted the way he did, she was disappointed? Yes but never angry. He knew he deserved it anyways.

"I'm fine, now. Thank you for checking up on me. You don't have to worry anymore, I apologise for scaring you earlier." It was what broke the silence between them and they both looked up at him.

But taehyung didn't look back at them and went to prepare his daily tea for himself.

"Taehyung I.. I'm sorry." Jungkook said, his voice shaky and his chin wobbling because of how he had been crying.

"You've nothing to be sorry for. You never did anything wrong to me. It was all me. I.. used you to say the least. Same for seonghee. I am sorry to you both but I don't think that's even enough." Taehyung said as he sat back down on the table with his tea. Even though medicines had kicked in, he still felt the tiredness seeping in his bones.

"It's not your fault, taehyung. It's your mother's. She abused you and then emotionally blackmailed you." Seonghee's voice was loud, filled with anger towards the woman.

"I never expected her to be like this. She was like a second mother to me when I was away from my own.. how could she.." Jungkook's voice was opposite to that of seonghee's, quiet and filled with disbelief.

"I should've done better. I'm not a child anymore. When I knew the life I wanted was.. forbidden for me, i should not have acted selfishly and dragged you both with me. I shouldn't have acted upon my feelings and made Jungkook my.. dirty little secret when he doesn't deserve that and I should have been honest with you since day 1 instead of playing pretend and acting delusional for so long." Taehyung said as he took a sip of the tea, even though it burnt his tongue he couldn't bring himself to care.

"But you're only human, I should've tried to understand you more. I should've at least let you talk that day and maybe things would've been different but I didn't." Jungkook said as he hesitantly placed his hand on the elder's who shook his head and pulled it away.

"You might feel bad for me now but it really doesn't justify the pain I gave you jungkook, you prioritised yourself, that was the right decision for you. Because even after it has been years, I still can't bring myself to say that word when it's about me, I still crave normalcy, I don't think I can still accept myself just yet. You deserve someone who can openly love you. I was never the one for you." Taehyung said and took another sip of his tea, without looking up at jungkook. He didn't think he could look into his eyes anyways.

"I.. got married to you for a similar reason. I too, used you, taehyung. It wasn't just you, the only difference was i actually fell for you and you didn't." Seonghee revealed after some moments of silence and Jungkook was half surprised because he knew a thing or two but taehyung looked like he had seen a ghost as he turned to look at the woman who gave him a tight lipped smile.

"I was in love with a woman, we were actually together, in a happy, commited relationship for a while but my parents found out. They thought I was a lesbian and getting me married to a man would 'fix' me. I am bisexual. I used you to move on from the woman whose heart I broke because I was a coward and unwilling to fight for us.

I was the same age as you. I didn't even have to go through what you did growing up. I just said yes to marrying you and took the easier way. I don't think I even have the right to blame you for anything when I did this to myself. You don't need to apologise to me. I guess I just got my karma." Seonghee said to him and with that she got up patting both of the man's shoulders before leaving, saying a silent,

'i leave it to you both'.

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