Tear in my Heart.

Confusion

Sorry I've been gone. A lot has happened and I've needed time to recover. But for now I'm back and will try to get a chapter out here and there. Thank you all for the love and sticking around. 

"Sure.." Is said as she nodded and began to message Dawn back. 'Maybe he just wants to be friends or something.' I thought as I sat on the couch with my thoughts racing. I waited for a bit and I soon received a text from Moon. "Hey Sun, its Moon. My mom got your number from your mom, lol." I chuckled quietly to myself and headed to my room. 'This doesn't need to be anything big.' I turned on my bedroom light and sat in bed. We texted back and forth a bit and then we went to bed. I sighed as I pulled my blankets over me and thought of Cassy.

The next morning I got up and got ready for the day. As I started to make some lunch I received a text from Moon. "Hey would you wanna go for coffee or something with me in a bit?" I smiled a little at the text and thought for a moment. "Sure." I sent back and sat and ate my lunch. As I ate I texted Roxy and got her thoughts. "Sun this could be good, and you know him so go and have coffee." I nodded at her message and texted Moon where I lived. I was so nervous as I waited for him to pull in, but also excited.

I stood by the door and he soon pulled in. I let out a sigh and headed out to his car closing the door behind me. I opened the door to his 2004 Toyota Corolla and got in. "Hi," he said as I shut the door and buckled up. "Hi," I said back as he pulled out of my driveway and headed out to the coffee shop.

Once we got to the coffee shop we both got a coffee and sat at a table outside. It was a nice day and the sun was shining. We talked for five hours and we caught each other up on the past years. I learned that Moon and I lived very different lives. He was more of a high school bad boy, while I was the nerdy good boy. It wasn't bad that we lived separate lives, we both grew in our own ways. And he was still the Moon I remembered. The only thing different was our mental health and age.

After we chatted he brought me back home, and I felt the need to kiss his cheek. 'Too soon Sun.' I thought to myself as I thanked him for the coffee and the fun time we had chatting. I went back inside the house as he drove off and I sighed. 'That was a lot of fun...but I think I'm in love with him.' I thought to myself as I went up the stairs and my mom was smiling. "So... how'd it go?" She asked as I set down my bag and took off my shoes. "Good we caught up and had coffee." She nodded and I headed back to my room to message Roxy.

"I really do think I'm in love with him...but what about Cassy?" I texted her as I laid in bed with a sigh. "Well Sun, she never said to wait for her, and she did say that if you found someone that would be okay and she would understand." I nodded at her text and sighed. I didn't want to hurt her, but at this point I'm never gonna be able to see her or even move in with her. I would lose everything. After texting for a few hours I was starting to get sleepy. I bid Cassy goodnight and put my phone down for the night.

The following day I got up and ate some breakfast while watching Mithzan. After breakfast I sat in bed and started to work on a drawing piece. As I was drawing and listening to music I saw a text from Moon. I texted him back for a bit and things were starting to get steamy. I was enjoying it and decided to have fun with it. We kept messaging back and forth to the point I was getting hard. After a bit of messaging we decided to meet up the next day and see where things go. And I was excided but I needed to tell Moon something. Something I haven't told anyone.

"I don't really like being touched." I sighed as I sent the text and waited for Moon's answer. "That's okay we can take things slow. We don't need to have sex. We could just watch something and chat more." I nodded at the text and smiled. I was happy her understood, and I was glad he wasn't gonna push it. Soon it was ten o'clock and I needed to get to bed. We decided to meet up at one and hang out at his parents house while they were away at work the next day. I was yet again excited but nervous. We could either have sex or not. And I kind of wanted to lose my virginity to him.