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ꨄ 10

"𝙒𝙝𝙚𝙧𝙚 𝙖𝙧𝙚 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙜𝙤𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙃𝙚𝙚?" I asked him while more tears fell from both of my eyes. His words sounded so beautiful but so scary for me.

"𝙎𝙤𝙢𝙚𝙬𝙝𝙚𝙧𝙚 𝙛𝙖𝙧 𝙖𝙬𝙖𝙮 𝙬𝙝𝙚𝙧𝙚 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙘𝙖𝙣'𝙩 𝙧𝙚𝙖𝙘𝙝" He faced the grass under him.

"𝘼𝙧𝙚 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙜𝙤𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙩𝙤 𝙡𝙚𝙖𝙫𝙚 𝙢𝙚 𝙟𝙪𝙨𝙩 𝙡𝙞𝙠𝙚 𝙩𝙝𝙖𝙩?" I yelled at him while my voice started breaking down. I had one week that didn't suck and i had to face pain again.

"𝙄 𝙬𝙞𝙡𝙡 𝙗𝙚 𝙝𝙚𝙧𝙚 𝙖𝙡𝙬𝙖𝙮𝙨. 𝙀𝙫𝙚𝙣 𝙬𝙝𝙚𝙣 𝙮𝙤𝙪'𝙡𝙡 𝙣𝙚𝙫𝙚𝙧 𝙨𝙥𝙤𝙩 𝙢𝙮 𝙨𝙢𝙞𝙡𝙚 𝙖𝙜𝙖𝙞𝙣. 𝙄 𝙨𝙖𝙬 𝙝𝙤𝙬 𝙢𝙪𝙘𝙝 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙖𝙙𝙤𝙧𝙚 𝙞𝙩" when he was about to finish the sentence his voice was shaking so much it was hard to understand.

When he couldn't speak anymore, he handed me a letter and took out his phone afterwards.

He started typing something on it. As soon as he was done he turned the screen for me to see.

"Read it when i leave and when you'll be ready ꨄ"

The heart at the end. The heart that i had saved after his name.

Heeseung tried so hard to not break down and keep his smile so this memory would be a happy one.

"𝙋𝙡𝙚𝙖𝙨𝙚 𝙙𝙤𝙣'𝙩 𝙙𝙞𝙨𝙖𝙥𝙥𝙚𝙖𝙧 𝙟𝙪𝙨𝙩 𝙡𝙞𝙠𝙚 𝙩𝙝𝙖𝙩, 𝙞 𝙗𝙚𝙜 𝙮𝙤𝙪" i couldn't stand on my own legs, they felt like letting me go down every second and so they did.

I fell onto my knees, begging him not to leave me. My eyes filled with tears that were not stopping.

Heeseung kneeled down beside me, taking my hand once again. A tear left his eye before speaking again.

"𝙄 𝙬𝙞𝙨𝙝 𝙬𝙚 𝙘𝙤𝙪𝙡𝙙 𝙜𝙤 𝙗𝙖𝙘𝙠 𝙩𝙤 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙙𝙖𝙮 𝙬𝙚 𝙢𝙚𝙩, 𝙢𝙮 𝙡𝙤𝙫𝙚𝙡𝙮 𝙄𝙯𝙪𝙢𝙞" he mumbled while i was not able to say anything.

"𝙄'𝙢 𝙨𝙤 𝙨𝙤𝙧𝙧𝙮 𝙛𝙤𝙧 𝙚𝙫𝙚𝙧𝙮𝙩𝙝𝙞𝙣𝙜. 𝙄'𝙡𝙡 𝙗𝙚 𝙮𝙤𝙪𝙧 𝙜𝙪𝙖𝙧𝙙𝙞𝙖𝙣 𝙖𝙣𝙜𝙚𝙡 𝙛𝙤𝙧𝙚𝙫𝙚𝙧, 𝙬𝙖𝙩𝙘𝙝𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙤𝙫𝙚𝙧 𝙮𝙤𝙪."

He continued while i begged him to stay a little longer.

"𝙒𝙝𝙮 𝙖𝙧𝙚 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙡𝙚𝙖𝙫𝙞𝙣𝙜?" I was curious to know about his medical condition or why was he about to leave me in pieces.

"𝘾𝙖𝙣𝙘𝙚𝙧." He smiled not showing a bit of sadness from such a thing.

"𝙅𝙪𝙨𝙩 𝙖 𝙡𝙞𝙩𝙩𝙡𝙚 𝙡𝙤𝙣𝙜𝙚𝙧 𝙃𝙚𝙚𝙨𝙚𝙪𝙣𝙜" i continued to beg him knowing i couldn't do a thing about it.

"𝙄 𝙬𝙤𝙪𝙡𝙙 𝙗𝙚 𝙙𝙚𝙖𝙙 𝙞𝙣 𝙖 𝙢𝙤𝙣𝙩𝙝 𝙗𝙪𝙩 𝙄 𝙙𝙤𝙣'𝙩 𝙬𝙖𝙣𝙩 𝙩𝙤 𝙙𝙞𝙚 𝙡𝙞𝙠𝙚 𝙖 𝙛𝙤𝙤𝙡 𝙬𝙞𝙩𝙝 𝙚𝙫𝙚𝙧𝙮𝙤𝙣𝙚 𝙘𝙖𝙧𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙖𝙗𝙤𝙪𝙩 𝙢𝙚 𝙨𝙤 𝙨𝙪𝙙𝙙𝙚𝙣𝙡𝙮 𝙗𝙪𝙩 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙘𝙖𝙧𝙚𝙙 𝙚𝙫𝙚𝙣 𝙗𝙚𝙛𝙤𝙧𝙚 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙛𝙤𝙪𝙣𝙙 𝙤𝙪𝙩." His smile grew wider.

"𝙋𝙡𝙚𝙖𝙨𝙚" It was the only word i could say at the moment.

"𝙄'𝙢 𝙧𝙚𝙖𝙙𝙮 𝙩𝙤 𝙜𝙤, 𝙞 𝙛𝙤𝙪𝙣𝙙 𝙚𝙫𝙚𝙧𝙮𝙩𝙝𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙞 𝙬𝙖𝙣𝙩𝙚𝙙. 𝙔𝙤𝙪 𝙄𝙯𝙪𝙢𝙞. 𝙄'𝙢 𝙝𝙖𝙥𝙥𝙮 𝙗𝙚𝙘𝙖𝙪𝙨𝙚 𝙞 𝙖𝙡𝙬𝙖𝙮𝙨 𝙬𝙤𝙣𝙙𝙚𝙧𝙚𝙙 𝙞𝙛 𝙞 𝙛𝙞𝙣𝙙 𝙨𝙤𝙢𝙚𝙤𝙣𝙚 𝙩𝙤 𝙛𝙖𝙡𝙡 𝙞𝙣 𝙡𝙤𝙫𝙚 𝙬𝙞𝙩𝙝 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙞 𝙙𝙞𝙙" He giggled after just causing my biggest heartbreak yet confessing his feelings at the same time.