𝐃𝐄𝐉𝐀 𝐕𝐔 [𝙃𝙀𝙀𝙎𝙀𝙐𝙉𝙂] | [희승] 𝗘𝗡-

ꨄ 12

Two days passed since i saw Heeseung's face for the last time.

All i did was rot in the bed not having the energy to visit our place anymore.

The two days were rainy the first time since the summer began and since Heeseung left this world.

His shine disappeared from this Earth and the only time i left my bed was at the night. The night i was so scared of my whole life.

I stood infront of my front door looking at the dark sky that Heeseung made shine brighter. Brighter by adding one star.

From then i liked night more than the day.

I stood there looking at his beauty for a while. I didn't have the guts to open up the letter he gave me. Not just yet.

I wasn't ready.

"𝙄𝙕𝙐𝙈𝙄. 𝘼𝙣 𝙞𝙣𝙫𝙞𝙩𝙖𝙩𝙞𝙤𝙣 𝙘𝙖𝙢𝙚, 𝙞𝙩'𝙨 𝙤𝙣 𝙮𝙤𝙪𝙧 𝙣𝙖𝙢𝙚" i heard my mom yell from the inside. Shockingly she took a break from her bight life today.

I ran to her as soon as i heard an invitation.
I grabbed it from her hand and ran into my room.

Goumi was resting on my bed not knowing she won't see her buddy ever again.

I opened it and saw what i feared the most.

"𝙃𝙚𝙚𝙨𝙚𝙪𝙣𝙜" i teared up. Goumi could sense something was off so she layed beside me all the time.

𝙏𝙝𝙚 𝙨𝙬𝙚𝙚𝙩𝙚𝙨𝙩 𝙥𝙚𝙤𝙥𝙡𝙚 𝙖𝙡𝙬𝙖𝙮𝙨 𝙝𝙖𝙫𝙚 𝙩𝙤 𝙜𝙤 𝙛𝙞𝙧𝙨𝙩.

I read the invitation thousands of times until i cried myself to sleep.

𝙄 𝙝𝙖𝙙 𝙖 𝙙𝙧𝙚𝙖𝙢...

𝐼 𝑤𝑎𝑠 𝑤𝑎𝑙𝑘𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑡ℎ𝑟𝑜𝑢𝑔ℎ 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑝𝑙𝑎𝑐𝑒 𝑡ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝑏𝑒𝑐𝑎𝑚𝑒 𝑜𝑢𝑟𝑠. 𝐼 𝑠𝑎𝑡 𝑜𝑛 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑔𝑟𝑎𝑠𝑠 𝑤ℎ𝑖𝑙𝑒 𝑖 𝑠𝑎𝑤 𝐻𝑒𝑒𝑠𝑒𝑢𝑛𝑔 𝑟𝑢𝑛𝑛𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑡𝑜𝑤𝑎𝑟𝑑𝑠 𝑚𝑒.

𝐼 𝑔𝑜𝑡 𝑢𝑝 𝑎𝑠 𝑠𝑜𝑜𝑛 𝑎𝑠 ℎ𝑒 𝑎𝑝𝑝𝑒𝑎𝑟𝑒𝑑 𝑖𝑛 𝑚𝑦 𝑠𝑖𝑔ℎ𝑡. 𝐼 𝑤𝑎𝑖𝑡𝑒𝑑 𝑓𝑜𝑟 ℎ𝑖𝑚 𝑡𝑜 𝑟𝑒𝑎𝑐ℎ 𝑚𝑒 𝑜𝑛𝑙𝑦 𝑓𝑜𝑟 ℎ𝑖𝑚 𝑡𝑜 𝑠𝑡𝑜𝑝 𝑎 𝑓𝑒𝑤 𝑠𝑡𝑒𝑝𝑠 𝑖𝑛𝑓𝑟𝑜𝑛𝑡 𝑜𝑓 𝑚𝑒.

𝐼 𝑘𝑛𝑒𝑤 ℎ𝑒 𝑤𝑜𝑢𝑙𝑑𝑛'𝑡 𝑐𝑜𝑚𝑒 𝑐𝑙𝑜𝑠𝑒𝑟 𝑠𝑜 𝑖 𝑟𝑒𝑎𝑐ℎ𝑒𝑑 𝑜𝑢𝑡 𝑓𝑜𝑟 ℎ𝑖𝑚. 𝐻𝑒 𝑡𝑜𝑜𝑘 𝑎 𝑠𝑡𝑒𝑝 𝑏𝑎𝑐𝑘 𝑤𝑖𝑡ℎ 𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑟𝑦 𝑠𝑡𝑒𝑝 𝑖 𝑡𝑜𝑜𝑘 𝑓𝑜𝑟𝑤𝑎𝑟𝑑.

𝑇ℎ𝑒𝑟𝑒 𝑤𝑎𝑠 𝑎 𝑙𝑖𝑛𝑒 𝑏𝑒𝑡𝑤𝑒𝑒𝑛 𝑢𝑠 𝑤𝑒 𝑐𝑜𝑢𝑙𝑑𝑛'𝑡 𝑐𝑟𝑜𝑠𝑠. 𝐿𝑖𝑛𝑒 𝑏𝑒𝑡𝑤𝑒𝑒𝑛 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑑𝑒𝑎𝑡ℎ 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑙𝑖𝑓𝑒.

"𝐻𝑒𝑒𝑠𝑒𝑢𝑛𝑔 𝑐𝑜𝑚𝑒 ℎ𝑒𝑟𝑒!" 𝐼 𝑠ℎ𝑜𝑢𝑡𝑒𝑑

𝑂𝑛𝑙𝑦 𝑡𝑜 𝑔𝑒𝑡 𝑎 𝑠ℎ𝑜𝑜𝑘 𝑤𝑖𝑡ℎ ℎ𝑖𝑠 ℎ𝑒𝑎𝑑 𝑎𝑠 𝑎 𝑛𝑜. 𝐴 𝑡𝑒𝑎𝑟 𝑐𝑎𝑚𝑒 𝑓𝑟𝑜𝑚 𝑚𝑦 𝑒𝑦𝑒.

𝐻𝑒𝑒𝑠𝑒𝑢𝑛𝑔 𝑡𝑢𝑟𝑛𝑒𝑑 𝑎𝑤𝑎𝑦 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑠𝑡𝑎𝑟𝑡𝑒𝑑 𝑟𝑢𝑛𝑛𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑎𝑤𝑎𝑦. 𝑇ℎ𝑒 𝑔𝑟𝑎𝑠𝑠 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑤𝑖𝑙𝑑 𝑓𝑙𝑜𝑤𝑒𝑟𝑠 𝑙𝑒𝑑 𝑚𝑜𝑟𝑒 𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑟𝑦𝑡𝑖𝑚𝑒 ℎ𝑒 𝑔𝑜𝑡 𝑚𝑜𝑟𝑒 𝑑𝑖𝑠𝑡𝑎𝑛𝑡.

𝐼 𝑤𝑎𝑛𝑡𝑒𝑑 𝑡𝑜 𝑟𝑢𝑛 𝑎𝑓𝑡𝑒𝑟 ℎ𝑖𝑚 𝑏𝑢𝑡 𝑖 𝑐𝑜𝑢𝑙𝑑𝑛'𝑡 𝑚𝑜𝑣𝑒 𝑜𝑟 𝑙𝑜𝑜𝑘 𝑎𝑤𝑎𝑦. 𝐼 ℎ𝑎𝑑 𝑡𝑜 𝑤𝑎𝑡𝑐ℎ ℎ𝑖𝑚 𝑙𝑒𝑎𝑣𝑒. 𝑂𝑣𝑒𝑟 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑜𝑣𝑒𝑟 𝑎𝑔𝑎𝑖𝑛.

𝐴𝑡 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑒𝑛𝑑 𝑜𝑓 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑓𝑖𝑒𝑙𝑑 ℎ𝑒 𝑡𝑢𝑟𝑛𝑒𝑑 𝑎𝑟𝑜𝑢𝑛𝑑 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑤𝑎𝑣𝑒𝑑 𝑎𝑡 𝑚𝑒. 𝑊𝑖𝑡ℎ 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑤𝑎𝑣𝑒 ℎ𝑒 𝑑𝑖𝑑 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑓𝑖𝑒𝑙𝑑 𝑡𝑢𝑟𝑛𝑒𝑑 𝑖𝑛𝑡𝑜 𝑎 𝑑𝑢𝑠𝑡 𝑖 𝑤𝑎𝑠 𝑠𝑙𝑜𝑤𝑙𝑦 𝑠𝑢𝑓𝑓𝑜𝑐𝑎𝑡𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑤𝑖𝑡ℎ 𝑖𝑡.

"𝙉𝙊" I shouted when i woke up from the dream. A nightmare.

I sat up and couldn't seem to catch my breath.