It's Too Late To Love Me Back

Chapter 18

There was a lot to say regarding what really happened between Younes and I. But was Adel someone whom I could confide in the fact a stranger man threatened to kiss me against my will?

Definitely not..

I had no heart to talk about Younes, not then and there, I had no mental power to pick the right words to say to a sneaky selfish man who is known to take advantage of everyone around him before throwing them away..

I might be very people-stupid, in the sense my judgment of people is miserably mistaken and poor, but I still knew Adem was someone I could never trust and better raise all my guards around him, although I knew this I still failed to do anything at the time, I was so shook by what happened at the dining hall and my head ran with a thousand questions to the point I had no left room nor mental power to deal with Adem.

_" I no longer want Younes, that's what happened and what I told him, and he accepted it, so please Adem.. Leave.. I want to be alone."

_" What!? Are you serious??"

_" Do I look like I have the heart to be laughing with you now? You got the answer you wanted, now leave.."

He starts laughing though, strangely, he looks at me with dead eyes and just laughs like if he heard me wrong and thought I confirmed I was joking, this freak..

There's nothing to be laughed at in the fact I let go of a love that brought me more harm than happiness, even if this love -supposedly- was the only 'leash' that prevented Younes from coming after this family.

_" There's no way he let go of you as easily as you claim, that man was too deep into it to let go, you're mistaken, just go back to him like the good girl you were and tell him you weren't in you right mind when you so stupidly threw away your only way to save yourself and this rotten family from him."

I just ignore him and head towards the door, if he wasn't leaving my room then he might as well rot here for all I care, I was too tired to deal with him, however, I barely made few steps when he grabbed my arm, made me turn to look at him, and pleaded:

_" Listen Rima, I might be a jerk, no.. I am a jerk actually and you know it, but wallahi I want no harm to befall you, I'm speaking from the heart of a cousin who knows just how hopelessly dumb and clueless you are, you have not a single idea how deep into sh*t every last person around you is, once you lose the only protection you chanced upon you'll be bitten to death you have my word for it, go back to him.. if not to save this family because he clearly is already out to get everyone's neck.. then to save yourself."

After saying this, he let go of my arm, and left the room in hurried steps..

Leaving me puzzled behind.. wondering: "What the hell is happening?"

I had no idea, I really was so clueless to a frightening point, imagine living with someone like my 4th uncle your whole life.. who has been the epitome of religious and benevolent.. who never missed one prayer or a day of fasting, and never refrained from helping the poor and the needy, he was literally the voice of consciousness in our family whose opinions and judgment were always trusted, imagine to see this man in the shameful picture that I saw.. Imagine to see the sinful nakedness of someone who was the model of virtue.

He was a fraud all along guising a fake cloth of virtue, curse the ground he walks on!

To remember he was one of the people who condemned Salwa the most .. I feel ashamed on his behalf..