It's Too Late To Love Me Back

Chapter 23

There was no happiness in the days that followed.. not even my 4th uncle full scale scandal brought me any sense of joy or satisfaction.

As it was expected, Younes made it so my uncle's secret corrupted way of living becomes the talk of everyone.. I don't know how he exactly did so, I  thought not much people would be interested in reading the news of some grey haired man wasting his days on women and drugs, at least not outside the tight circle who knew who my uncle was and his fake religiousness, but I was proven wrong, it turned out in a conservative society where everyone either pretends to be the model of chastity or is in fact a model of chastity no talk spreads like a wild fire more than a moral scandal or a story of a rich man who's completely lost in the lust and the forbidden, it rapidly made all headlines and became a source of public outrage.

The family's reputation already hit a bottom a short while ago with what issued with Salwa and the financial consequences of that, it turns out that could hardly be called a bottom in comparaison with how things became after my uncle's lovely news reached the public, it was so bad that even my nonchalent father said on the dinner table:

_" even my own students are snickering at me now, I can't lift my head up, not to mention the situation at the company, it's catastrophic."

Speaking of my parents, I've been actively refusing to speak to them since that day, by actively I mean they tried to engage me in the hassle that's been going on in the Majdan family but I've been giving them the cold shoulder and mostly just wasting my days jailed in my room alone.

I was back to square one, back to spending days just lying on the bed for straight hours and willowing in my regrets and resentments, the progress I made with great effort for almost two years seems like a big joke now that I'm realizing the people who watched over me while I withered and died inside, my own parents, have been one of the sources of my misery.

How could they have the heart to watch me set a real fire and cry out of the pain I felt without batting  an eyelid? couldn't they tell me:

"Rima, it is not that the woman you are is lacking and undeserving of love,  it isn't because you loved an undeserving man, the cruel reality you have to accept is not that you were rejected because you were never loved.. but you were rejected because Younes Merabat and you are just too wrong to be together."

My heart twisted with unease and distrust, believe me it seriously messes with the one's head to know even the very closest people can't be trusted, maybe there are people out there who have enough mental strength and wits to normally carry a life where they have no trusted ally but their own selves, but I'm not that person, this is not how I lived so far, I loved so much and trusted to a fault, to have all my fundamental beliefs suddenly questioned and ruined was really messing me up from the inside.

As much as I want to not blame my parents, I still have to wonder: how could they?
Seriously, It was the end of Younes and I anyways, my love had to end for Younes's sake and mine, but did the ending have to be that wrongful and unfair?

At least if I knew the man was told to shut up and die with his feelings inside unless he got his act together I wouldn't have wasted months blaming him.. he sure still a coward in my opinion, I mean.. What type of a man would just take a girl's parents sh*t religiously like he did? but if I knew the truth while I was spending those months letting go of him anyways at least I would have done so with a heart that held no resentment.

He and I were meant to go in seperate ways from the get go now that I think about it, I had to be out and gone of his life so that he can do all the right things, that is to include exposing the lowlifes called my uncles whom I held in the highest regard for so long, but did it have to end that way?