𝐌𝐀𝐑𝐆𝐀𝐑𝐄𝐓 :: walker scobell

𝐓𝐀𝐊𝐄 𝐀 𝐁𝐑𝐄𝐀𝐊 𝐏𝐓.𝟐

𝐬𝐮𝐦𝐦𝐚𝐫𝐲: take a break, have a kitkat
𝐠𝐞𝐧𝐫𝐞: everything tbh
𝐰𝐚𝐫𝐧𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐬: swearing

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𝐖𝐀𝐋𝐊𝐄𝐑'𝐒 𝐏𝐎𝐕

that was the worst day of my entire life.

when we got back to our hotel, i could finally let my tears run free.

i closed the door and immediately slid down and put my face in my hands.

i keep replaying the argument in my head, and my heart breaks all over again.

i can even fathom the way i felt when y/n said we should take a break. i simultaneously wanted to sob and scream, not particularly at her though.

i should've just explained my side of the story instead of getting defensive and accusing something happened with her and mason.

did something happen between the two? no. i know that for a fact, but i just felt the need to throw it in her face.

pretty shitty right?

i'm becoming aware of that now.

as for the entire ellie situation, that was my fault too.

i'll explain.

i was hanging out with my cousin blake and her best friend, ellie.

while we were all together, i started to really like ellie. not in that way though. i thought she was a really nice girl and we could be friends.

anyways, she was taking a selfie and asked me to be in it. i have no idea, but i kissed her cheek. i had absolutely no intention of cheating on y/n, i love her so much. we've never said the "l" word yet, but after losing her, i knew that was how i felt. i just thought the kiss was a friendly thing, i didn't realize my full stupidity until y/n found it and got mad.

after she found it, she asked me to come to her house so she could ask me about it. of course she was mad, but she didn't show it. though, i still knew. she really blew up when i brought mason in the conversation. when we weren't coming to a solution, she sent me home.

that was a week ago. now it's august and we're filming, so we have no choice but to see each other.

even though my side of the story is bull shit, i need her to know i had no bad intentions. right now, she thinks i did it because i like ellie, but that couldn't be further from the truth.

the thing about love, it makes you do some stupid shit.

and you're probably thinking, "walker, if you love y/n so much, why did you do all that to her?"

i'll answer that as best as i can. unfortunately, i am 15 years old and have never been in a romantic relationship with anyone except her. it was our first fight, and i didn't know how to fix it, so i assigned blame.

i just really want y/n to know the full truth, but that girl does not want to see me right now, and i can't blame her.

for about an hour, i pace in my hotel room, contemplating if i should go over.