I think people are full of shit. I'm just saying. There isn't really an emotion for what I'm feeling right now, to be honest. So, what did I do today? Well, that entry I did yesterday. . . a majority of my closest friends have read it and know about my situation with her. Since they all pretty much know, I should just start using her name from now on. Kay, it's Genevive. Anyways, yeah. Some supported me, some. . . kinda didn't. There's this one friend of mine. They. . . sorta judged me. First off, I am NOT lesbian. For God's sake (sorry, God) . . . she is the first girl I have liked in my entire fucking life. That's freaking normal, calm your shit, bro. I'm pretty sure you've had a crush on the same sex, jeez. And. . . people say it's just a phase. Yeah, no. . . I had a crush on her last year, so don't tell me it's just a phase because you don't know what's running through my mind right now. For some reason, I just like venting here. I stopped venting my real feelings to people a while back. They don't give a shit, so this is better. No one cares, but at least, I'm not bottling up my emotions. It hurts, you know.
So, today, I had absolute fun in choir. Just because I got to see her and hug her and all that stuff. We told one of our friends how we felt about each other, and we thought her reaction would be something like, "Ew, what the hell. That's gross." But instead, she totally fangirled and it was so cute. Is it normal. . . for a girl to feel this way about a girl, too? Like, honestly. Because, I've always had these sort of feelings for guys, but with her, sakhgrjgabk. . . I go all weird and awkward. Uhm, so. . . it's really odd how I just want her to be mine already. Not that I'm rushing, lol, I'm not. . . I just, i dunno anymore.
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Non-Fictioni always thought life wasn't hard. i never knew this was what life had in store for me. sometimes, it's just hard.
