Echoes of You

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July 3, 2023

Dear Caitlin,

I visited your parents today. They're as heartbroken as I am. We shared stories about you, laughed and cried together. Your mom gave me one of your old journals. Reading your thoughts and dreams makes me feel closer to you, but it also breaks my heart knowing we'll never create new memories together. I read about the plans you had for us, the places you wanted to visit, the life you envisioned for us. It's unbearable to think that we'll never get to do those things.

We sat in the living room, surrounded by photos of you. Your dad tried to be strong, but I could see the pain in his eyes. He talked about how proud he was of you, how you brought so much joy into their lives. Your mom hugged me tightly, and we cried together. It's comforting to be with people who loved you as much as I did, but it also amplifies the sense of loss. I miss your voice, your laughter, the way you made even the most mundane days feel special. The house feels so empty without your presence, your warmth.

I find myself talking to you out loud, hoping that somehow, somewhere, you can hear me. I miss you so much. I miss the way you used to tease me, the way you would surprise me with little notes and gifts. I miss the future we planned together. I hope you knew how much you meant to me, how deeply I loved you.