It's a nice and sunny day like every other day during the summer and usually you think of a young girl like me (14) at the time would be outside in a pair of shorts or something enjoying the weather. But not that is not me. That's something I don't do anymore, and i always feel like I'm trapped in a dream That's not real.
People wonder about me alot, like why do I wear pants all the time and wear long sleeves even in the summer. Most people my age understand already and think oh she's emo but truly some people don't understand why we do the things we do.
It ain't like we want to really, but we can't stand the pain or the bullying or whatever reason we do it. It's not for attention like people think it is, and they think oh we need help but we don't actually want the help. Because it don't really help. It makes us suffer even more. But people don't understand that, they think we're fucking crazy and it makes us think the same. When really we're not we just struggle with coping and use it as our way as coping. And it sucks people don't understand so we have to suffer on our own. But even if we do open up about it they make something of it or don't listen or understand anyway. So we think what even is the point in it anymore?
Therapist think they understand us but they don't, nobody does really. No matter how hard you try to understand somebody, you'll never fully understand. Because everyone takes things differently in life, even if you been through the same shit.
