I eventually caught a bond with one of the nurses and told her all about my past, and how I was in foster care and got adopted but they was getting a divorce and how abusive he was a long with how I got sexually assaulted, and I told but I couldn't follow through the whole court thing with it. It was to stressful for me and it didn't help me any with my mental health at all. But I trusted her and told her everything I could, even how I didn't know exactly why I did what I did it's just I wanted to die. I didn't care at the time i just wanted to end my life and the pain. And how I felt like everything was my fault, how I was never good enough.
She gave me good advice she did and helped a lot, id give her credit for that along with my best friend too but I couldnt talk to her at the time, they wouldn't let me and that was the only thing I wanted to do. I wanted to let her know I was okay and I was thinking about her. I then later found out my sister had blocked her and I wasn't supposed to talk to her because they was blaming it on her, but if it was for her I wouldn't be here today and I wish people would understand she's not just my best friend she's like my sister unlike my real sister and she's a life saver. She had changed my mindset nowadays and I've been working on myself now, but I couldn't of done it without her so I hope she never leaves and knows I love her. Because she's the only thing I need in life. She's my only true friend.
