"You just erased her..." Phil's voice is dark, and it sounds foreign to Dan. Not like anything he's ever heard from Phil. The innocent voice Phil always had. No, Dan isn't in love with his best friend. He simply misses the childish, caring voice, of his best friend.
Dan dries away his tears, while stuttering "Phil?" He has been crying both before, and while phil called him.
"You-you, you, Daniel James Howell, erased.. You erased R-Ruby. You erased Ruby!" Pointing it out, rather angrily, Dan has to pull the phone a bit away from his ear, in fear of going a little deaf.
Rain hits the windows hard, and Dan really feels the sadness, as he mumbles "Ph-Phil? Are you mad at mme?" He tries not to cry, hearing Phils reply.
"I'm not mad, Dan. I'm disappointed. You let her die, Dan! You just... Let her die. H-how could you?" The beeping when someone hangs up, is the only thing being heard in the kitchen.
The tears on Dan's cheeks from lying to Phil, are slowly drying away on his skin. Knowing that he had lied to Phil, made his heart shatter a bit. Phil got so mad at Dan, meaning he probably cares a lot about Ruby.
Dan doesn't want to lie to Phil, but the thing is, he kind of had to.
Of course he didn't really had to, but he still did, and he has no idea what is happening to him.
First, he hates Ruby. Then he gets jealous because she gets along with Phil, and now he lied to Phil. All because of jealousy, he was sure he never would've felt about Ruby.
Dan still remembers Ruby. Her long, glossy hazel coloured hair. The way her green, emerald eyes shines, whenever she sees something she likes, or sees something beautiful.
A whisper from behind pulls Dan back from his daydreaming. "Daniel?" When he turns around, he sees an exhausted, drowsy angel, standing in the doorframe. There she stood, the almighty beauty.
"What's happening? I can't remember anything..." She complains quietly, sighing.
It's Dan's fault. He changed her.
She's forgotten all about Phil, and it surprises Dan, that Phil still hasn't figured out that something is wrong.
Ruby told him that when she'd die, he wouldn't remember her. Phil used to be so smart, where'd his brains go?
"It's okay, Ruby. We're alright." Dan walks towards Ruby, clutching tightly onto her soft, white dress. Dan inhales Ruby's scent, and he realises how much he's missed her. Last time he had seen her, and not argued with her, was when he was a toddler, which is long ago.
"Daniel, I feel like.. I feel like some part of me is missing." Dan swallows a lump in his throat, remembering when he first imagined her, when he made her.
When he was younger, he used to see it as a cows four stomachs, just with more than four parts. Her mind is divided in six parts, and she's missing one of them, as she said.
One of the parts is Dan, another Phil, which is obviously the one she is missing, but can't figure out. Third part is a girl who got murdered in 1695. Dan created her in that year, based on the girl who died in that year. He had read about it in a newspaper, so he decided that should be it. So basically, Dan's imaginary friend, Ruby, is based off of a dead girl. Ruby just doesn't know that.
Fourth part is July, the month she got born in. If Dan had to say this, he'd clearly turn it into a pun, saying Fourth of July, haha, get it? but he doesn't say this, of course. Fifth part is sadness, how depressing. As a kid Dan was sad very often, and as he wanted someone to relate to him, he gave Ruby that bad thing.
Sixth part is darkness, yet another thing Dan had a lot of during his childhood, and pretty much a lot of his life. It is pretty selfish of Dan, and he'd gladly admit it.
Selfish to make her sad, like him, fill her with darkness, like him, and then make her forget an important person, a part of her just because of his jealousy.
Jealousy can easily get the best of people.
After Laura ditched her date with Dan, and tried to get with Phil instead, it doesn't hurt much more. It did for a little while, but really, Dan doesn't care about Laura, and he's glad he doesn't. She was just a deadweight in his life, even though she didn't even want to be in it.
What he doesn't like, is feeling so attached to Ruby, and needy of her in his life.
"Daniel?" There's a lot more about Ruby, as Dan used the whole month July on creating her, but the time isn't here.
"Yes, Ruby?" She swallows a lump in her throat, as she bites her lower lip. The only thing that catches Dan's attention, while she opens her mouth to talk, is her soft, pink plump lips.
"When was I born? O-or Created?" Dan blinks multiple times, before even thinking of an answer.
What will happen if he answers truthfully? What if he lies? Will she know, and get mad? Or will she feel betrayed, or maybe the truth might make her sad? Or would she remember something- someone, like Phil?
"Wh-what do you want me to say?" He stutters, as his heart starts beating faster.
She closes her eyes, and Dan can't help but look at her long eyelashes, wishing for her to open her eyes again. So beautiful, so captivating. "The truth, only the truth."
Letting out a sigh, Dan asks "but what if it's going to hurt you, Ruby? What if-"
Anger in her voice is rising, and Dan starts to get a bit scared of her. "I don't care Daniel! All I ask for is the truth, it can't be that hard to say a single year, can it?" She pulls her body away from Dan's embrace, and he instantly misses the warmth of her body against his.
Sighing in annoyance, Dan says "fine," staring into her green eyes, and wondering if he ever created her this beautiful.
"1695" he reveals, and her eyes widen, and she gasps. Dan looks at her with a confused look, as she stares down at the floor.
"1695, you say?" Dan nods, and asks if she remembers something, and she nods back. He prays that it's not Phil.
Trying not to sound too suspicious, or nervous, Dan asks "What is it? Can I know?"
"Philip. Philip Lester." Dan's eyes widen, and he just hopes for it not to be his best friend, but some other, random Philip Lester. She can't fall for him, or like him more than she likes Dan. He created her, and he deserves her love, Phil doesn't need it, he has Laura's, if he wanted something from a girl.
"What's with him?" Dan wonders if he should laugh, or if it'll just make it worse. He feels small drops of sweat forming on his forehead, and damn, he feels nervous.
"He killed me."
I think u all hate me now (˃̥̥ω˂̥̥̥) it's okay though, I hate myself too
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Fallen Angel ≫ Dan Howell AU ≫ ON HOLD
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