It's one month after dad's funeral and I have no choice but to move in her. Packing seems so final. Moving away from everything I was familiar with.
I still cannot fathom, how she can pretend to be the perfect mother now? How can a mother discard her own flesh and blood like she did? Are some things not worth more than money and status?
"I know I haven't been the perfect mother but maybe this is the fresh start we both need. No excuse can make up for what I did. I know. But you constantly reminding me, doesn't help" she says looking at with a pity face.
"Wow! So when you decide to be a mother, I just have to fall in and pretend everything's hunky dory, when you've been nothing but an absent piece of shit." I said with tears welling up.
Awkward silence passes
"You're right. I'm an absent piece of shit who finally decided to show up for my daughter after the only parent she knew, died. Is that what you wanna hear? I made mistakes. I'm aware of that but once you enter adulthood, you'll understand nothing is black and white", she says like she understands what I went through.
"No thanks. I never want to be the mother for anyone as you were for me. Whether they're biological or not". I said walking towards the door.
I opened the door signalling for her to leave.
"You can't stay here forever and when you realise that, you know where to find me". She said standing at the door before leaving to her car in the street.
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A few weeks passed and I had to leave. Thankfully the landlord was graceful for the last weeks in my old home and old town. He understood the situation and took pity on me.
Goodbye my first steps. Goodbye my first words. Goodbye to all my firsts.
Goodbye dad, I say with tears in my blue eyes.
I go to his grave one more time before leaving the oh so familiar town I grew up in and let him know how much I miss him and will continue to miss him.
As I turn to look back I see her waiting for me. Hell awaits for me just a bit too soon but here we go into the devil's portal.
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Mommy Issues
RandomBella/Izzy has to move in with her mother after her father passed away. She hasn't seen her mother in almost 10 years. Her mother has a new family and a new status to uphold. How will they get along since, she hasn't mentioned a daughter to her husb...
