While driving she reminisced about all the places she use to hang out as a teen.
She took me to a diner she use to go to. There the owner recognised and asked her how she's doing. He seemed to know what happened between her and dad. She tells him dad passed and says I'm going to live with her.
He looks at me and says, "Hey kiddo. I'm big Mike. I'm an old friend of your parents. Sorry to hear about your dad. He was really a good man".
"Thank you", I replied.
Mom came to sit down and big Mike took our order. There was a few minutes of awkward silence, till I broke it.
"Why did you leave us? Do you know what that does to a kid? That feeling of am I not good enough for the woman that birthed me? Oh! Not to mention, it's a small town and news travels fast. Bullies love these kind of sob stories. If it wasn't for dad, I would've never stood up to them." I said holding back tears and projecting my all the hurt I had towards her.
She just sat there in silence.
"But you know what, don't worry. Soon I'll be 18 and out of your hair. Everything will go back to normal for you"
Big Mike brought our food and I started munching.
She laughs.
"You remind me so much of myself when I look at you. I use to hate my mom too. My dad was a more love-hate relationship. I never really knew what having a mother was like too. Not that it changes things. I know. Buy then you father came and swept me off my feet and before I knew it I had you. To me it all happened so fast"
There was a pause before she continued.
"I was in my senior year of high school when I got pregnant with you and the situation at home was terrible" she said finally opening up to me.
"Why did you and your parents not get along?" I asked curiously.
"Well to put it mildly, your grandmother was a lady of the night. I'm assuming you know what that means... Of course my father couldn't stand her, let alone be near her. She was a good mother the times she was present, but she was almost never there" Mom said with a very distant look in her eyes.
I hate how her opening up is softening me.
"My father told me to marry a man that can provide for me and that, that man was not your father" she continues.
"At the time, I didn't know of better. I told your father I want to give you up for adoption but he refused and said he will raise you on his own. I tried making it work but your father lived off passion and that didn't pay the bills.
You deserved better than what I could have been. Guess I wasn't any better than my mother.
I just sat there in silence till it was time to leave.
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