will solace: the Balance In Light And Dark

yer a wizard harry!

Art by Chris Oyales
Trigger warning: suicidal thougths.
Will POV
Gracie had just brought the food to me, and i was reading a book called Harry Potter and the philosopher's stone. I am dyslectic, just like most Greek demigods, but i still like reading. It makes me calm. I was just reading about a man named Hagrid, that came to a boy, Harry on his birthday and said something like: "Yer a wizard Harry!" When i heard a sound coming from the bed, and a groan following after. I immediately looked up from my book.

Nico was awake. "Nico how are you, are you okay? What happened!!" I asked him. " I have a feeling this is a déjà vu." Nico said. " Oh yeah, it is, but please answer me now: What happened and how are you feeling?!" I said impatiently. "Chill, i'm fine! I don't know what happened, but it is probably nothing bad. You don't have to worry so much sunshine!" Nico answered. "Are you sure?" I asked suspiciously. "Of course i'm sure! And sorry for earlier!" He said. Okay then...And also sorry for earlier." I said. "Can i leave now?" Nico asked. " first your food. You look like you haven't eaten in a while." I said. But then he seriously said: " Yes, LOOK like!!" And he ran away.

"Oh, no your not!" I said and i tried to run after him, but he was already gone.

Nico POV
I knew Will would be angry if i shadowtraveled away, so i decided to run. I tell you, that's not a good idea when you feel bad. Yes, i know i actually should tell Will, but i don't want him to get too worried.

I feel something like a weird ache at my heart. It is harder than normal to breathe. But, i will just pretend like everything is alright.

When i came into my cabin i immediately needed to cough. -Yep, of course you're alright Nico!!- Stop thinking so much about it! You deserve this! You let your own sister and mother die and Will doesn't love you!! He thinks you are just a selfish patient. I let my self slide down on the wall of my cabin and i started crying. I got my sister killed, blamed Percy for it while he did nothing wrong. Now i seriously got to tartarus with will and he probably still has nightmares about it... I am just a stupid unuseful kid that doesn't deserve anything. More sobs. So just let yourself get killed. No one will even care about it. I kept repeating these kind of thoughts until i fell asleep, tears still lingering on my cheeks. I wish i got them off first.

Will POV
Just after Nico ran away, i got to the other patients. I was just done with fixing a few broken ribs when Frank came in. " Do you know where Nico is? He said he would play Mythomagic with me and i don't want to disturb him when he is sleeping or in the infirmary or anything like that."

" Oh, i don't know. He is not in the infirmary, so i think he is in his cabin, but i can check if you want?" I said. Frank answered: " that is maybe the most optional idea, when you see how grumpy Nico can be." "I'll go get him. " i said. " It could take a while, so you can do something else, i will get you when i have found nico." Frank nodded in agreement and i walked away to get nico. Wherever he is.