are you bored of me yet? <||ruikasa||>

chapter two

saturday. a day that everyone loved, no fear of commitment or the dread of the next upcoming day. you could simply sleep and sit for as long as one could ever wish for, be as lazy as you would like.

so when his mind awoke and his consciousness was once again gained this knowledge, he wanted and realized he could spend the whole entire day with his beloved rui. the rui he had known most his life, the rui he lived with, the rui that he had forced him to cuddle with him last night. yes, that one. in his defense, he was completely and incredibly sleep deprived, and was certainly not in his right mind whatsoever. and yeah, friends cuddle with each other all the time, it was completely normal and platonic and normal and friend-like.

yes. very normal and friend-y.

when he opened his eyes, he couldn't really see anything. well sure, he could see something, just a very strange and dark shade of gray, almost as if he hadn't quite opened his eyes just yet, or as if he were still sleeping. of course, he could feel something, that something being another human body right next to him, embracing him, hugging him, no, now he realized he wasn't beside him, he was below him, and oh my god that's rui, hes on top of rui, rui is sleeping, rui is not awake, but rui is hugging tsukasa, and oh, they probably slept like that, didn't they? they definitely slept like that, after tsukasa forced himself onto him, his stupid sleep deprived brain, and stupid stupid stupid tsukasa!

he kind of wanted to push away, away from rui to avoid the embarrassing talk and questions he would have to ask, he could already hear the disapproval in ruis voice when he would enviably say, "why did you do that, tsukasa? that's kind of disgusting," but also, that sliver of hope, that little chance of him being okay with it. maybe he would, maybe they could get over it after a little, maybe he would allow him to do it again..? but then again, he also wanted to stay like that, with rui, bundled up in that little cocoon of safe warmth.

he let his eyes shut again, burying his face back and tightening his arms around him. he squirmed around until he felt comfortable again, but not too much, just so he didn't wake the one under him. falling back asleep, the world almost disappeared around him, dissolving to nothing but rui.

•••

"yeah, uh sorry," tsukasa said at the table, rubbing the back of his head as he ate. "kind of pushed myself onto you last night..."

rui laughed, in a kind of awkward tone layering the sound, vibrating through the room. "oh yeah," he said scratching the back of his head, his fingers tangled in his hair, lifting it off the back of his neck. "yeah, no don't worry about it, you were probably really tired."

they both laughed again, a cold heavy silence filling the air around them after. it was filled with awkwardness- no, not awkwardness, like, tension, like they were waiting for something to happen, to spring into action at any moment.

they both looked away, focusing on anything but each other. they ate the breakfast rui made in silence, occasionally being broken by a cough or the clinking of chopsticks.

"so," tsukasa started, attempting to break the thick ice they had forced between them. "how's... school?"

what a stupid question, he was thinking. they went to the same school, had basically all of their classes together, studied together, practiced together, did everything together. he was smart, and tsukasa knew it. he knew he was doing perfect but still asked such an awkward question. if only he hadn't slept on his fucking chest last night.

"uh," he started scratching his head again as he put his dish in the sink. tsukasa couldn't help but notice the way his muscles flexed underneath his soft sweater, it looked so soft, maybe he could touch th-

"it's good," he said nodding. "yeah, no problems, good test scores, professors like me, i think," he laughed. but oh, how could anybody not like rui? this perfect, seemingly mythical being capable of everything he set his mind to? rui, one of tsukasas favorite people ever to exist, if not favorite, wasn't liked?

"yeah, yeah," tsukasa said, clearing his throat. "yeah, uh, any shows youre planning to be in?"

he glanced over to where rui was, watching his hands move as he washed his plate. he made a humming sound in his throat, and then stopped, turning back to him. he dried his hands on a towel before tossing it to the counter, his face scrunching up and returning to normal at his bad aim. "i don't know. maybe, if you join one."

tsukasa didn't know why his face felt so hot, or why his stomach was doing flips and his heat felt like it was about to burst when he said that.  he swallowed back the feeling and answered; "yeah, sure. we could choreograph something, if not join one."

rui nodded, his finger pointed on his chin. "yeah! we could include nene and emu too, i'm sure they would like it," he said, determined.

tsukasa couldn't help but feel a twinge of jealousy at the thought of having to share the dance with them, like they were trying to steal rui from him. wrinkling his nose, rui didn't seem to notice, his face reflecting the deep thought he was in.

whatever. as long as rui stayed with him, everything would be fine. he glanced back at where he was pacing, back and forth through the small kitchen. his mouth was moving, no words seeming to follow it though. then he was looking at him, but those eyes, his eyes stared straight into tsukasas soul, piercing his heart clean through.

then he was getting closer, his mouth and his eyes getting closer with those pretty soft lips and those pretty eyes. he almost didn't hear him when he-

"tsukasa!"

-was jerked out of his thoughts.

straightening himself out, he tucked a fallen piece of his hair behind his ear. he nodded quickly and answered with a brief "yes," before going to stare at the floor, a nervous feeling spreading in his stomach.

"is that okay?" he asked, his hand on tsukasas shoulder.

tsukasa jerked a little, suprised by the sudden contact, but not quite complaining. "uh- yes." he said, his skin burning under ruis hand. "i'm a star though, i must be the lead!"

rui smiled, his head tilting slightly. "of course you will be, tsukasa-kun."

they smiled at each other, before rui had to leave. he had a meet up with emu discussing the project they were supposed to work on. he said goodbye quickly, that odd tension still lingering in the air after the events of the night before. tsukasa still wondered though, why didn't he bring it up much? why didn't he yell at him?

more importantly, why didn't he seem bothered?

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