New Beginnings In The Tunnel Of Life

Nightmares

*****SAGE****

Sitting up out of bed with cold sweat dripping off me, I place my hand over my chest feeling my heart race. Looking at the clock on the wall, it's only one am. Throwing the blankets off me, I walk towards the bathroom and wipe myself off changing into shorts and a shirt.

Padding down to the kitchen, opening the cabinets, a feeling of wanting to escape the pain comes over me. Seeing the bottle of vodka and taking a swig, I sit on the counter.

Staring at the wall, unable to avoid the thoughts in my head that have been bothering me. Why does this have to happen to me again? I gained this most amazing thing in my life and now I am about to lose it. There's also the fact that for some reason Dalton is still trying to do everything he can for me.

Squeezing my eyes shut and tipping my head back taking another shot of vodka. Breathing out through the burn in my throat, looking at the wall with tears prickling at my eyes. Ash and Tryston and Levi stare at me from a picture across the room, their faces lit up in a huge smile.

Slipping off the counter, and walking with no sense of where I am going, I find myself walking outside. Pretty soon, I am across the street laying in a swing staring at the stars with tears running down my face.

A door opens, and a face appears over mine, "Sage?"

Trying not to cry even more, I whisper, "Who are you?"

A sigh escape's this guys lips, "Your drunk."

I giggle and cry even more, "No more sadness."

The figure helps me sit me up on the swing and sits next to me, taking the bottle of vodka from my hands. Pouting my lips and trying to reach the bottle of vodka, feeling disappointed that it was taken away.

Shaking his head, he sets it out of my reach, "You don't need anymore of this."

Slumping, and leaning my head against the swing, turning back towards the stars in the sky once again feeling a big hole in my chest.

"Sage, why are you out here at one am drinking on my swing?"

A slight laugh escapes my lips, as tears go back down my face, "Why couldn't I fix everything? The one I love is sitting in the hospital, and I don't know if he will wake up. On other matters, a person who I wanted my entire future with is sitting next to him for me in my absence. Why is it so confusing to me? "

"Sage. Ash isn't going to go anywhere, I promise. He would never want to leave you or Micah without him around."

Blinking the blurriness out of my eyes, the male figure appears more clearly in front of me and I realize it's Tryston. Tryston who stares at me with sympathy and disappointment.

Rubbing my eyes, and looking down at my arms, "Why do I keep thinking that I am going to fix something? How is it possible to have so much love for someone, you don't know how to live without them. Yet, you have this other person who seems to be re entering your life. Entire brain and chest are going crazy and emotional, and I can't handle it anymore."

Laying my head back as the tears fall down my face, Tryston puts his hand on my arm.

"Sage, when we first met, what did you tell me?"

Looking at Tryston, I swallow, and dredge up the memories, "That I was scared. I wanted happiness, and the future, and love. How this one guy broke me into a million pieces yet I could never hate him, and all I wanted to do was forget."

He nods, "Yet even after everything he did to you. Those days you were down here drowning your feelings out partying with me. You forgave him. You are an amazing woman, and becoming the most amazing mom. Ash and you fell in love at first sight, and I know how scared you are. He isn't going to leave you Sage, he is fighting for you."