𝕬𝖑𝖑 𝕱𝖔𝖗 𝖄𝖔𝖚 𝕸𝖞 𝕷𝖔𝖛𝖊

15

Before I start this story I just wanna say thank you for 200 followers, um sadly school has started again so that means I'm not gonna be posting a lot. I'm really trying my mind is everywhere else and I can't focus at all, again sorry volleyball has also started. But that's not an excuse I should have posted a long time ago, but Wattpad don't pay me shit sooo.

STORM

I haven't went back to school, I haven't even ate in two days. I just feel so weak right now, like I don't know. I barely have been sleeping, between my dad just dying, and me losing my best friend and damn near my mom, and also my dads side I literally feel like I'm about to go crazy.

Like my mind is literally spiraling, my door was opened by my amazing boyfriend. He's literally been so helpful and I feel so bad, because I just feel like I'm using him or something.

"I think we should break up" I blurted, his face morphed into confusion then sad? "Why?" I started crying, seems like that's the only thing I can do now fr.

"Cause I feel like I'm using you, and I don't want you to feel like I don't love you cause I do. And I'm really sorry for bothering you all the time, and I feel like you just deserve somebody else." I started to pick at my hang nails.

"That's not a good reason to break up I promise you Storm if I felt like you weren't good enough for me, or using me I would have been broke up with you. Now stop your making yourself bleed"

I didn't realize until I felt a stinging sensation and then I saw the blood from one of the hang nails I pulled, "sorry" I huffed and got up heading to my bathroom

I put my fingers under the warm water, hissing when they stung. I took out some bandaids and put them on my fingers, after that I went back into my room and sat down

"I love you ok?" "I love you to and I'm sorry it's just my mind is everywhere, and I just feel like I'm falling apart." I said scratching my arm, "how about we sign you up for some therapy, I can't help you the way I want to."

He said pulling me towards him more, "I don't think I need it that bad" I mumbled. "Yes you do baby what you're doing to your fingers is a sign of self harm, And I don't want it to get worst."

I huffed and just laid my head on his shoulder, "so will you agree to do it for me?" "Fine."

3 days later.

"So how are you feeling?" I stared at the white old lady, she had a clipboard in her hand, And had glasses. "Ok" "can you describe that "ok" feeling?"
"Like I feel numb I don't feel anything right now, so maybe neutral"

She wrote something down on her clipboard, "so your boyfriend told me that your suffering from your father's loss, can you tell me what you feel about that?"

"Well I miss him a lot, I can't really accept that he's dead. Like I won't ever see him again, and I'll have stop live my life without him." I said playing with his chain, "how is your mom reacting to this?"

"She doesn't care, she said she never really loved him, and that she has a new man." She hummed, "do you think she's lying?" "Why would she lie about something like that?"

"Maybe that's her way of coping" "can't be, she hasn't been at the house since Saturday." I said still playing with the chain, "now how do you feel mentally?"

"Tired" her timer dinged and I stood up, "we will get back on that topic next Wednesday" I hummed and walked out. On the chair outside, was my boyfriend. "How was it?" "Fine I just wanna cuddle now" I huffed after I finished my sentence.

We made it back, and I immediately went to my room laying down. Kahari went next to me laying down beside me, "you think you wanna go back?" "Yeah it could be good for me"

"I'm glad you think so"

Ok really short because honestly I hate this story, it lost all the meaning it had in the first 3 chapters and if you couldn't tell I lost motivation for this, I hate writing this story and it's not even fun to write it anymore.

But I can't find a way to end it sooo please help me or I'm just gonna cancel it and it will never have an ending.