She Was Who I Paid Attention To (Vauseman)

Chapter 6

PIPER POV

"Fuck you!" I said as I stormed out of Alex's room. I can't believe I trusted her AND that she would actually break up with Sylvie. I didn't even know Sylvie lived with Alex. This is just a big mess. I shouldn't have let myself get into this bullshit.

  So basically the past two weeks has been fine, I would go over house once or twice a week and hang out, maybe make out a little bit and it would be fine. But one night I thought 'Well I think we have been seeing each other long enough. I think I'm ready to go all the way.' I really wanted to, so of course I called my lovely partner and basically told her exactly what was on my mind and of course she did not refuse. She told me to go over there after 9. She was really clear when she said AFTER NINE. So I did what she told me. So we did do it and it was amazing. But then she had to take a call and as she was gone I was attacked by SYLVIE her VERY PRESENT girlfriend. I immediately picked up my scattered clothes and started to leave before either I attempted to kill Alex or Sylvie attempted to kill me. As I left I had to pass Sylvie who of course called me a bitch as I left. We had a great introduction.

Ever since then Alex has been calling and texting me. I haven't answered even though I really wanted to. It's been really hard to ignore her believe it or not. She pushed me out of my comfort zone. I never expected to like a woman, let alone be with one. But she got me to do that. But maybe it was just a phase and maybe I am silly for hurting over this. I just don't know anymore. She was crazy in all the right ways. She made me excited to go out and meet new people. But I couldn't trust her. Relationships build over trust so I don't think I can have a real relationship with her unless I know she will be honest.

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"She just thinks that by calling and texting me that I will automatically forgive her. I just don't know anymore Pol," I vented to Polly. It has been a while since we had a good talk even with us living in the same house, so we decided to have one of our legendary girls nights with movies, ice cream and most importantly, venting.

"Well she is obviously a bitch for doing that to you Pipes, you have every right to be mad," She said trying to make me feel better but it just really bothers me. 

"Hell yeah she's a bitch. She's so manipulative but at the same time it's like I'm addicted to her." I confess as I stuffed a spoonful of chocolate ice cream in my mouth.

"Yeah, so what about you? I mean are you fully gay or is just a phase?" She asked hesitantly, she knew it was a topic that I was pretty defensive about, but this time was different because I really didn't know. 

"I think it's just a phase, I wasn't attracted to any other girls before. It was just her, she was amazing," I said. I don't know maybe I still was into her regardless, I just won't show it.

"Yeah that makes sense, well just forget her. I'm gonna head to bed okay? You should too, you have work tomorrow and it's already 1 in the morning." She said as she helped me up.

"Okay goodnight I love you," I said as I kissed her cheek.

"Goodnight Piper, love you too."

ALEX POV

'I really screwed it all up' I thought to myself. I really did feel bad about everything that happened with Piper. She probably thinks I'm a liar and I can never get her to trust me again. Why the hell did Sylvie have to come home so early? As soon as Piper left I was bombarded with questions about the "whore" I brought home. After that was all over she told me how much she busted her ass to make me love her and at that point I started to actually feel bad for Sylvie. I mean sure she was crazy but then again she didn't deserve to be lied to. But I don't want to hurt her because she is kinda like my best friend. I like her as a best friend more than a girlfriend. So to protect my best friend, I lied to her.

"I'm sorry Sylvie. It's just that," I took a pause. "Before we were best friends. So when I had my other flings it was okay, but now that you're my girlfriend." I took another pause, I wasn't sure how to explain this to her, "I don't really know how this whole relationship thing really works." I apologized. I really meant it. I was sorry for hurting her but I don't know if I was sorry for being with Piper. I really did enjoy the times I had with Piper and I wouldn't trade those for the world. She was something special. 

 But then again, I tried to apologize to Piper and she ignored me.. I sent things like 'Pipes can we please talk about this?' or 'Piper I fucked up I'm sorry' and she read them and didn't even acknowledge me. She really hurt me. So forget her. Sylvie is willing to forgive me when I apologize so maybe I should work it out with her. As of right now, I will try my best to be with Sylvie because even though she is clingy, at least she cares about what I do.