Oh For The Love Of Halstead

Nightmare

WARNING!!!!

Mentions of suicide! And self harm!

Please do not read if you are sensitive to this!

(Slight mentions of child abuse)

Will's POV

I was in the kitchen getting water when I heard y/n screaming, I ran into the room almost passing our door as my feet slid across the wood floors. "Y/n!?" As I looked into our room I realized she wasn't in danger but was having a nightmare.

I ran over to her and grabbed her arms and pulled her to my chest. "Please! Go away! Stop!" She cried out trying to push me away from her.

"Stop!" She yelled. She was struggling to get away but unluckyly for me she got an arm lose and hit me to escape. "Y/n! Y/n!!" I grabbed her arms back and pulled her completely against me hoping she wouldn't get away again.

I could care less about myself getting hurt but I was worried about her. She had hurt herself before according to April. "Y/n!!" I yelled as loud as I could hoping she'd hear me. She did, she woke up screaming and trying to escape but I just held her.

"Wi... W...Wil... Will?" She was sobbing but somehow she was whispering. "I'm here." She looked at me with tears in her eyes, it looked like she was questioning if I was real. She scanned my face and slowly moved her hand to my face. She gently touched me as though if she touched to hard I'd brake and fall to pieces.

"I'm here. I'm not going anywhere. I'm real." I reassured. She just kept her hand on my face staring at me. I could tell she wanted to say something but I didn't know how to tell her I was real, I knew her. She wouldn't believe me until she called down all the way. I just sat there patiently as I waited for her to speak.

"I don't... I..." She chocked on her words and looked away for a brief moment. "I don't... I don't want to be here..." I was confused by her words but before I could speak she did. "I don't want to be alive..." I didn't know how to respond, I just sat there looking into her eyes and seeing all her pain, her suffering, her sadness.

"Wha-" I couldn't speak. I didn't know how. What she just said those words rung through my head over and over. "I can't take it anymore. I can't take the nightmares, the sleepless nights, the pain, the war, the bodies of my friends... I... I just can't take it..." She cried.

I didn't move. I didn't speak. I did absolutely nothing. I just sat there looking at the women I love cry in pain. I'd known she was in the military, I'd known she'd been through a lot, but, her being in so much pain she wanted to take her own life. I... How did I not see the pain before?

When I finally broke eye contact with her that's when I saw it. I saw the scars on her arms, and the ones on her shoulder. I'd never asked her why she hated dresses or short sleeves but now I understood. I always thought it was from her parents abuse but I was wrong.

The girl I loved was going through absolute hell her whole life and I didn't even notice. It never even crossed my mind. How could I have been so idiotic to not see it? Was I so worried about my own problems or what Jay had been through to not notice it? Did Jay know this?

They served together, maybe he knew and didn't know how to tell me? Or maybe he thought I couldn't handle it? What if he didn't know? What if she'd hid it from him too?

"Y/n... I... I don't know what to say... I don't know how I couldn't see you were in so much pain, but I need you to know I'm here. I'm with you, good or bad I'm with you. I won't leave you no matter what. Even if you hated me I'd stay with you. You are the most amazing and beautiful person I've ever met. I'm so glad you came into my life when you did, I don't know where I'd be without you. So I need you to know, you can't leave me. I need you more than air itself. More than anything. I'd give up my job, my life, my everything to keep you with me. So I need you to know, no matter what you've been through I'm staying. You can talk to me. Even if you think you can't you can. I can't lose you. I need you, okay? I need that amazing women I met 3 years ago, I need you with or without the pain. Because you are my everything. We will get through this together, I promise I'm with you till the end of the line. And that line is very far from here you got it? I love you and I can't live without you."

I'd hoped what I said would help her realize how much she matters to me, and I was happy to see that even if small a smile appeared on her face and she looked at me.

"Promise?" She sniffed wiping the tears from her eyes. "Promise. To the end of the earth, I promise." She just smiled at me clinging to me as much as she could as she buried her face into my chest.

I'm that moment the worry of the situation flowed away and I knew them and there we'd makebit through this.

I knew we'd be okay.

A/n

This chapter was a bit shorter but I hope you enjoyed! This might become a part two, if you guys want. So let me know :)